Holy crap, nowadays i m jus so not used to blogging already! Sorry abt tt. Anyway what matters is tt i'm back! hahaha. Well yesterday watched due date, from the directors of hangover. Omg, the movie was freaking funny! Right from the start till the end hahaha. I even laughed when i thought abt certain scenes. Awesome. All the guys should definately catch it.

After a very long time, i met up with rama. The both of us never had the time to meet up since he was busy preparing for his A levels. Really look up to him for his effort and hard work. But oh yea yesterday turned out to be a great night with my buddy cos we watched an awesome movie, had an awesome dinner and highlight of the night was the awesome chilled beers and shesha! I fucking went back home only at 2 and slept for like 3 hrs before i got up for work. Awesome man!

Was like a freaking zombie today at work due to the lack of sleep and heavy intake of beer hahaha. And though yesterday nite ended of fantastically well, somehow i woke up pissed off and it lasted a whole day. Dunno if i was affected by something without knowing abt it myself haha! And also went ahead declining the zouk out outing deal with my fren who volunteered to pay for me. Just had some issues and didnt wanna go for it. I think i made a gd choice. Anyway, i feel much better after a certain msg tt cheered me up. Thanks tons. Dunno what i'll be without ppl like this!

All the best to all whom re having examinations now! Do well and party the rest of December hahaha! Cheers!
Ganeshan | 4:07 AM

Alright! It has been long since i sat down and typed a serious post down here hahaha! Ever since i started work at Keppel, there goes my time and all. So that is one reason why i couldnt come here to post anything.

Recently was activated for some mobilisation, was damn irritating cos i was called back on a bladie saturday. The only consolation was tt i got to see my army buddies. Haiz.

That day passed by the deepavali expo at little india. Well i purely got upset after getting reminded of someone. Yea, it was my mum. I remember the last time i ever went to the expo was abt 3 yrs back, 2007. Though i hate to go ard for too long and not get anything, i loved it whenever it was with my mum cos she will get excited with almost anything she sees. Damn cute she was. Hmmmm, why cant ur love ones always stay by ur side. Well, guess life is as such.

Deepavali 2010 is coming. And the only reason why i am looking forward to t is because i'll be having a holiday from my work that day. Besdies that, i am in no mood for any kind of celebration or wat. One reason for this is that i dun think my family has settled down in a proper way yet, so i dun feel the need for a celebration at this pt of time. Another reason is that besides calling my frens and celebrating it with my frens, i dun feel the need and joy to celebrate such an occasion. But this yr i m not in a mind to call anyone so yea. Last yr was probably a gd one where i did call almost all my close frens home except one or two. Still havent make up for it hahaha.

I realised that listing out wat is happening in my life in my blog is not necessarily a gd thing to do. Sometimes, things re better off when it is not shared at all. I think i am preferring tt. But of cos, if i need another sourse to vent out my anger or maybe to express my happiness or wat, i'd definately use the blog. Provided its something i can share to everyone of cos!
Ganeshan | 4:32 AM

Endhiraaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! hahahaha. Yesss! finally watched the movie in theatres and man, it's the most fucking awesome INDIAN movie that I have ever watched. Its beyond imagination! Chitti version 2.0, my latest favourite character. Gonna fucking learn all the dialouges man! hahaha. Proud moment for all tamilans to have such a Record breaking movie in our kitty! hahaha. DOT
Ganeshan | 9:32 PM

Bruno Mars-Just the Way You Are

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And it's so, it's so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

(Chorus)
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think it's so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
I'd never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

(Chorus)

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

(Chorus)
Ganeshan | 9:36 PM

A rather sensitive comment by someone close is stuck to my head for almost a week already! Jus feel a little fucked up abt it for sometime. The comment was actually abt my family! Well.......... i think my family didnt leave a gd impression on my fren apparently. I didnt realize then that just by me letting out so many things innocently, tt its gonna leave a bad mark on me. Hmmmm.

Wat can i say, my first sis fucked it all up for my entire family. And now i'm being punished for someone else's fault jus like always. Why? I know my sis damamged the family's reputation to the extreme. Once, we were the family whom everyone looked up to. I have a very good mother and father. They re the nicest wisest ppl tt i ever know of. My father is so truthful and hardworking all his life and he loves his wife so much and he cares for his kids limitlessly. My mum i've already said enuff, she is simply an angel, there is no one who could come as close to her. I'm not saying this jus cos she is my mum, but she truely is a great woman. No one ever tot my family was not gd enuff. No one! But now, after watever my sibling did to the family, it seems as if i came from a damaged family. It is at this pt of time tt i wish my mum was ard. She would never had allowed so many things from happening. She really took the family and its reputation to a whole new level but once she left us, everything seems gone. Is it my fault? Despite me having the gd traits from my dad and mum and being truthful and genuine and loving towards those close to me, i'm jus being looked down at due to my family. Hmmmm. There was nothing i could do when my sister runied things up for the family, i really didnt have any control of things. But now, see how my sisters have caused a stain to be present in my life forever!!!
Ganeshan | 4:51 AM

i realise i have one very big problem with me. I jus LOVE my frens a lot. The list of frens tt i love and would do anything for is quite big. But no matter how much i love them, i have one thing tt has hit me now. I am not sure if all these frens love me even half as much... hmmm...

Life has somehow become quite busy now tt i can hardly think of anything else other than work. I realise tt sch life will surely be the best times of our lives cos once u start working, there is no turning back and u will be sucked into the robotic system of life. Anyway, a positive thing to take from such hectic life is tt it prevents ya from thinking watever else tt is going on in life. It jus keeps me away from the rest of the world so tt is one thing i like at least for now.
Ganeshan | 6:27 AM

2 more days and Industrial Attachment starts for me. There ends my holidays :( .....
Why cant they just extend it together with the rest of the NTU,since they start on 30th August. Aaiya nvm guess i jus gotta settle down at work. Damn

Anyway i was trying to make full use of my last one week of holidays. Was out practically everyday. Guess i wun go into the details of what i did for each day. Maybe just abt wednesday itself.

So on wednesday, i took a train all the way down to toa payoh to meet my buddy, who jus returned back from India after a 5weeks stay there. She landed only on tue. And i never tot i would meet her the next day itself, simply cos she jus landed and it wouldnt be so possible. It wasnt really a planned one, cos i never tot meeting her would be anytime soon since i wasnt free besides wednesday itself for the entire week, and after tt my IA was gonna start. So i tot i wouldnt be seeing her for quite sometime. But somehow, during the early hrs of wednesday, she msged and asked me if i was free and told me she has to go to the doc to check on some insect bite. So yea, i ended up at her place on wednesday afternoon. Had my lunch with my buddy and her mum and we ate freaking lots. She wouldnt know, but i was enjoying myself just seeing her back after so long. Missed her a lot. Glad tt she is back. I hope i'd have the chance to see her more though, but somehow IA is gonna keep my days very busy. But well, welcome back my dear buddy! Was great spending an entire afternoon with ya!

Watched inception. OMG. Purely amazing. I dunno how someone could come up with such a brilliant script. ITs a movie where u have to pay 100percent full concentration. Just shifting ur eyes or thoughts away from the screen for even a few seconds would lead u to wonderland. I am simply awed by how such a movie was taken. Of cos for some, they would need to see the movie a few more times to understand. I didnt understand everything the first time too but somehow i knew 80percent of wat was going on. Looking at such movies, i m ashamed by how some tamil movies and its directors re so backwards. They fucking take movies which really doesnt need any creative juices. Any tom dick harry would be able to come out with such stupid scripts. On top of tt, u see a pathetic actor like Vijay signing up for such movies forever. These re ppl who re bringing the tamil films and its industry 20 yrs back from wat its suppose to be today.

This is some after thoughts from a very interesting conversation tt i had with my buddy dhivya. We were discussing on how indian guys were like always wanting to be more than frens with the girls tt they get very close too. Well for me personally, i have quite a few close female frens. Somehow i have had interest on two of them before. But there re also these other few tt i have purely behaved only as a fren. I only wanted to be their fren ryte from the start, though they were awesome girls themselves. I dunno but i guess its true to a certain extent that all of us(the guys) will have an intention more than friendship when we re too close with someone. Tt happened to me very recently when i tot i should take my frienship to one level higher. But thats when things turned to be pretty bad. Glad tt now its all over.

So re platonic friendships really possible? Yesterday one of my army frens said its never possible and it will never exist. But i can say tt he is wrong, especially when it comes to me cos i m a living example. I did fall in love with a couple of them but at the end of the day, we ppl are all gd platonic friends and we re going strong somewhat. Somehow u understand fully about someone, after all the bitter moments, like the one i had with dhivya, just to cite an example. I somehow understood tt both of us were better off by being jus friends. She can really be an awesome fren and she herself realizes it. After knowing her chracter so well, i find tt its very true. YOu cant force such a friend to like love ya the way you want. And i didnt understand tt till all those things happened a few months back. So only through moments like tt, will ya learn about someone more. Somehow, i am very clear with myself now and i dun want to be involved with any kindaf love or watsoever, at least for the next two yrs. I want to graduate in peace, without going through a pain tt i mite inflict on myself. But of cos, my eyes re always open scouting for new faces hahaha. I am trying to spot ppl but somehow, i have like no history or watsoever with the ppl i have seen so far. I m talking abt ppl who i just came across while i am outside. I dun even know where they study and stuff. And even if i did know, i dun have a single mutual fren to like get to know these ppl. I dunno, at this rate i am gonna end up with arranged mariages i guess hahahaha.

Oh well, i think i am satisfied with the way things re and the way i am to ppl ard me. At least i dun see any immediate problem ahead of me with any of them. All kinds of fault or distrust have been cleared somehow. As u can see i will never use the word tt "i m happy" with the way things re now. Cos whenever i m happy abt something, it doesnt last for long. Therefore, i am jus satisfied with how things re now and i shall jus have zero expectations from all these. This is one way, i realize, to live a carefree life!
Ganeshan | 8:39 PM