To be honest, i have forgotten wat happened throughout last week besides the weekend! I realize i m forgetting a lots of stuff very easy as of late. Yesterday, i almost forgot to eat! I forgot on what i said like a few seconds ago and i tend to forget watever tt i was suppose to do. I even forgot my driving lesson time. Maybe all these happened cos of the severe headache i was suffering from throughout yesterday! Hopefully i dun be so forgetful for long!

Ok, as for last week, i could only remember wat i did for the weekend as i said. Saturday played three hours of team fortress 2 before we went to watch the Dark Knight!!! I was so impressed by heath ledger's performance. Was so damn awesome as the joker. I am damn sad tt he died at the age of 29. Wat a talented actor! I think the movie have exceeded my expectations. I waited for the dark knight since the time i finshed watching batman begins. And the movie thoroughly impressed me that i want to watch it for the joker again. Really awesome. Batman is truely the best hero movie! After that, went newton circus to join in for supper with Faye, Daryl, Amanda, JJ, Brendan and Mr. Wong! By the time i joined in was 11. But yea i went there purely for Faye cos she was gonna leave back to Aussie on Tuesday. Damn sad to know tt my awesome frens like krish and faye can only be seen after 3-4months of seperation. I really wonder how they cope with life without the usual ppl ard. Seriously if it was me, i would really be suffering. Haiz. Hopefully they re used to this feeling already and would be able to cope with the situation. Next time tt i would possibly see them is late November or early Dec.

Sunday was a disaster cos all of us, including our opponents team were at woodlands sec school for our match already. However, due to the field being a bit wet cos of the rain a few minutes before that, we were not allowed to play. The fellow incharge of the field in the north sector was so stupid when he actually checked the field. He didnt really check the main area that we were suppose to play. Instead, he checked near the drainage where the water actually gets collected cos of the slightly sloping sides of the field. A guy with absolutely no brains. So, match didnt take place and this was the second time this has happended and this time its worse cos it got cancelled without early notification. However, all of us decided we should play team fortress 2 with all those who actually came. Therefore, we went all the way to the Cathay again. 12 of us played this time which the the highest number of ppl playing so far which made the game harder than ever. It was damn fun and we played three hours again. Hahaha.

Well that was my weekend. Nothing much as you can see. The feeling of goin Uni is a bit scary. Cos it has been 3 yrs or so since i have last been in a studying environment. I dunno how long i'll take to adapt to the situation again. Hopefully, everything goes well. After some of my frens have left overseas, my life has started to become dull again. Cos i had more outings than ever when they were ard. So, this is a reason that makes me look forward for Uni to start. I would finally be so occupied that i dun have to worry abt boredom already. So yea, dunno if i should really be happy or sad that Uni is starting.

I m very confused recently abt something. I dunno if i have forgotten it all already and if i have move on with life as usual. Cos sometimes, i jus go back thinking abt the same thing. It seemed that wat i was doing before was wrong and purely a time wastage for me. Cos there wun be any proper outcome from it. But somehow got this funny feeling that things might change. Although i m no longer carrying on with that feeling anymore, time and time again i do think why it cant happen the way tt i wanted it to be! I dunno laaa, its better to stay away from such things in life as for now, unless it comes to you itself!!!
Ganeshan | 6:56 AM

Ok back again to update the remaining half of last week. Thur, was team fortress 2 again. We played with even more ppl. Was damn fun! Fri, went for my second driving lesson at yck. Not bad at all. The instructor told me how to change the gear smoothly plus he made me change my habit of putting down my foot from the accelerator. And also the braking techniques on how to brake smoothly was also taught. I am finding each driving lesson so interesting. The next driving lesson was fixed for Sat morning and i instantly agreed to it. After driving, went amk kfc to eat dinner with Ashwini, her sister, Krish and Rama. We were suppose to go to Fish & Co. But ashwini didnt have enuff cash with her hahaha. So yea was a small budget dinner. They actually wanted to go to some coffee shop at first but i found it too cheapskate. Cheap also must have std mah. So i opted kfc. Hahaha. Sharadha and ravi joined in later. But that was after ashwini and her sister left. Followed them to eat since they missed dinner with us. Afterwhich, my dad picked me and rama up from amk to go have supper at chom chom at serangoon gardens. Ate damn a lot there. The service down there is seriously fucked up in the sense tt there re very few table cleaners. The food tt was left on the table before we sat remained there for at least half an hour before it was finally cleared. And that too was cos my dad was making a lot of noise. I accidentally told him tt chom chom was like one of the best food places. He jus wasnt too satisfied with that statement after he got there. Hahaha.



Sat morning had driving. After tt went to book for trial test for ftt. Went home to rest awhile cos i woke up at 8am for driving. Thats the earliest so far in four months, even beating my monday's wake up time. Twice in the week i woke up SO EARLY. Haiz. Haha. So after resting well, i met the guys at lido for hellboy 2. The movie was quite good. Jus tt there was like one boring part which lasted for ard 10min during the beginning of the movie. But after tt, it became very enjoyable. Hellboy is one of the best characters ever, tt have been created so far. A superhero with attitude. Kewl movie and i liked it a lot. After the movie, we left to brewerks at clark quay for drinks. We only ordered one tower of 4litres, as most of us were not in the mood to drink. While drinking, we decided we should save our money and do something else instead of spending on another tower. Therefore, someone suggested minds' cafe. I was so on abt it. It has always been so hilarious, every single time i have been there. But unfortunately, we were told we will not be able to get any place before 11pm. So, we decided tt we should do something else. Guess wat. Played team fortress 2 again till 1am before i finally got back home. Hahaha. Was super fun. Quite a happening and fulfilling saturday.



Sunday, was Shooters FC vs Kewl and Gang FC. The match was played at Yusof Ishak Secondary School at Bukit Batok at 3pm. It was only after i went there tt i realized that the opponents' team were some professional league players. Ok tts besides the pt. Now abt the match. For the first half, we played quite well and created like three solid good chances but our strikers couldnt convert those into goals. Really wasted. The opponents' team didnt make lots of chances like us and i can safely say we played better than them in the first half. But, the opponents' team managed to convert a header into a goal which was somesort of a lucky goal. Well, our defence also didnt tie down on who was marking him. So yea it ended up as 1-0 first half. Oh and in the first half, i created one big oppurtunity myself by taking the ball from the bottom right all the way to the opponents' penalty box area. However, i didnt take the shot as i saw Rama running beside me at that time. So i tapped the ball to him for him to whack into the goal post. Unfortunately, he whacked it rite into the keeper's hands. I really tot that was a fantsatic opputunity and we could have changed the game with that goal. But yea, too bad it didnt go in! Second half of the game we continued playing well and created another few more chances which could have been converted in also but somehow it didnt end up into the net. Then, the opponents made a quick counter attack when the ball suddenly went to them from their penalty box. Me and suresh tried to stop him but didnt expect him to shoot from tt tight angle tt he was in. He jus placed the ball at the corner left of the goal post. And yes it went in. That was it. My hopes to come back into the game disappeared. And we were all like morale down after the second goal tt was really unexpected. Tt was when tt i saw like suraen sitting down. And i tot it was pretty unfair to have asked him to come all the way down and make him sit down at the subs bench for that entire game. So i decided to go out and told prak to get someone in, which was obviously Suraen. So yea, he got the chance to play but he only played abt 25min. And yea, every others who were sitting down first half had a chance to play after tt. I was happy till then tt the score was 2-0 despite the opponents being league players. But guess wat, last 15min, 3 clumsy goals went in cos of sloppy defence by my team. Seriously i dunno wat to say. I was watching it from the place i was sitting down at. No one marked the strikers properly. Was quite irritated with that sort of play in like the last 15 min. It was like the rest of the game tt we played tt day was toatlly redundant since at the end like no one absolutely managed the defence well. So at the end, it was 5-0. Damn demoralising but now we know, hopefully all, tt lots of improvements is needed in man marking, running and shooting. Tt was all for last week.

Anyway, read this horoscope thingy on facebook. It stated,"If you love something, let it go. If it comes back, it is yours. There are some things you just cannot change, no matter how hard you try. It is time to admit this to yourself and move on!" I was like wow! How true! Seriously, though it is a bit late tt this came, it still makes lots of sense cos tts what i needed sometime back. Whether it was a crush or love, you cant jus change certain things no matter how hard u persists. Sometimes, not giving up wun help. Instead, will only hurt u even more. As for some, they cant accept the fact tt they have lost the game of love which leads them to keep trying. Once u can accept the fact, it becomes easy to carry on with life normally. This applies to almost anyone. For those who cant move on from ur previous love lifes or crushes, read those lines and infer the truth from it. Your life will definately be better after reading them!
Ganeshan | 12:23 AM

I never had a very fulfilling week in recent times. The week, since monday, started off damn well and the momentum jus continued and i had plans for every single day. I am damn happy abt it. Ok time to tell watever i did for the week. This time i have to mention it day by day cos its worth mentioning.

Ok monday, i woke up at ard 8.30 which is the earliest timing tt i had to get up in like 4mths. Hahaha. So was damn tired. Went all the way to east coast to meet up with Daryl, Brendan and Faye. We were all gonna cycle for that day. We started the day at east coast by having brunch at Macs. After tt rented the bicycles and we headed to Changi Village. Tts like ard 16km. Haha. They seemed to have come up with this new pathway for cycling tt joins east coast to changi beach and then changi village. That didnt exist 3yrs ago when i organised a cycling outing. Yea so was more convenient i should say. At changi village i bought the famous ayam punyet(if tts how u spell it). I have been dying to eat it again for a long time. So yea finally got the chance. After tt we headed back to east coast. So total distance covered cycling was 32km. Well things didnt end there. Stupid brendan requested us to follow him to a bicycle pump shop which was situated at the old big splash area. He lied to us tt it was quite near. So we decided to follow him and found out in the next 5min tt the place wouldnt come unless we kept walkin on for at least half an hour. Yea thanks to brendan. Already our legs were like jelly but he jus made it worse. Oh the best part, i have not said it yet. We finally reached the bicycle pump shop after a hectic walk there. But guess wat, the bicycle pump shop is closed every monday!!! Damn u brendan. I really felt like killing him. Hahaha. Then yea aftre tt headed to toa payoh for dinner and back home!

Tue, had my first ever driving lesson with this driving instructor named Steven. He is damn gd. He is a chinese guy in his mid 40s. But guess wat, he can converse with me in tamil. Not entirely but at least a bit. Was awesome to hear tt he teaches like so many indians. Haha. Pretty unusual. Ok first lesson was at Braddel. He already made me u turn, drive up the slope, left turn, right turn, change gear in the first lesson itself. Was damn fun but was quite short. One hr only cos he is very packed with other learners. So yea. Well my engine never stall for even once cos i already knew abt the biding pt of the car cos of my motorbke experience and also the testing of my father's car at some carpark last time. So yea, the instructor found out tt i have secretly learnt before. Haha. But yea i was so looking forward for the next lesson which i had to wait for three more days. After that, went to meet up with the guys for Team Fortress 2. Ard 8 ppl came. Was freaking fun. We play at The Cathay at 7.30pm. It has become a standard meeting place and time now. The game happens to be more fun with more and more players. Damn interesting. If u'll dunno wat it is abt, well its a mix of cs and battlefield but way better cos its more cartoonish plus its like an idiot-proof game. Damn fun to play. Go try it yea!!!

Wed met up with Krish first, to go shop for anu's gift. She was gonna have a surprise farewell come birthday party later tt day. So yea, i and krish planned to get her something funny instead of something meaningful. The reason for this is so tt she remembers that naughty gift is from us no matter when she sees it. Something diff from the rest mah. I never tot its damn hard to get a soft toy which looks a bit funny. Was really tough cos all the places tt i went to, HAD VERY LIMITED AMT OF SOFT TOYS. Haiz. We started at Cineleisure, went to heeran, then to taka, then to paragorn and then scotts road. Spent nearly two hours plus walking and we didnt buy anything at orchard. So, decided to go to the raffles city since we were gonna meet them at some place near city hall at ard 7.30. So at 7 reached raffles city. Went to the precious thoughts. Bought something which i was not really happy with but still better than watever i saw for the day. Saw something nice but tt was way beyond our budget. Had to settle with that gorilla in the end. Bought her a pillow of apology together with that so tt she wun get too angry with the gift haha. Hopefully she liked it cos she msged me saying she doesnt like monkeys. Haha. We headed to The Turkish Restraunt at Shaw towers after tt. The chef's plate was quite nice but not enough. Maybe my appetite is jus too big these days. Hahaha. Oh but yea, anu seemed quite surprised cos the whole plan was managed well. Simple but gd. Had a gd time. Nice dinner and i was amazed by how childish gals can get hahaha. Seriously, anu's frens were like screaming and shouting while eating. And they even resulted in playing Che koh pah and scissors paper stone. Wtf hahaha. But yea was quite a hilarious moment.

Oh i must take this opputunity to say abt Anu. Firstly i was really happy tt i was part of the farewell dinner. Cos my friendship with anu didnt start long ago. In fact jus a few months ago. Hmm abt anu, i knew abt her last time during her jc days. Didnt really knew how she looked but murali have mentioned abt her. So i knew somebody called anu existed. Then there was once we clubbed together cos murali happened to bring his frens when i went clubbing with the guys. Tt day itself i dun remember talking to her either. So yea, we havent talked till then. A few months later, i came to know tt she was attached with one of my close frens. But i didnt really talk abt it outside since it was meant to be a secret. Apr 2008, for the first time anu was introduced to all the guys by my close fren. And even on that day, i didnt talk to her at all besides saying a hello when i was introduced to her. Then, my fren's b dae was coming and i heard from murali tt anu asked if i could help. Eventually, anu herself text me asking if i could. And of cos i did. Hahaha. Well, since then her life has been more interesting with the inclusion of the most fantastic and fascinating fren tt she has ever met, ME!!! Hahaha. I m quite sad tt she has left to NZ already cos i usually play with her by jacking her non stop. I could have been very mean with my jokes at time, but guess she understands. And she has been very nice to me all these while despite my jacks and i have a lot of respect for her for being such a nice gal. But tt doesnt mean i will be nice to you!!! Dun u even think abt it. I know u'll read this!!! Hahaha. Dream on!!!

Damn, i never knew i would have typed so much. Hahaha. I have only managed to type abt the first half of the week laa. Nvm. I think enough for today. I shall update abt the second half when i am free, maybe tmr! Yeaa. So yea, brb soon!!!!!
Ganeshan | 7:42 AM

Ok where should i start. Let me talk abt the movie outings i have had for the second half of the week. I watched deception and hancock on the same day. This is the second time tt i have watched two movies in theatres in one day. Deception, i found it fucked up! Not so impressive. I was irritated with the script and the story telling. And when i watched hancock, i dunno why, but i enjoyed the movie so much. I had a gd laugh for a number of scenes. But its not so great. Jus tt it was better than that stupid deception movie. So yea, watchable!

Now abt my soccer this afternoon. Finally, we managed to play against FitnessFirst FC after the cancellation of the match that we suppose to have with them two weeks ago due to the rain. I was damn pissed for a number of reasons. The FitnessFirst FC never come on time. It was us who booked the field so we had to pay for it. FitnessFirst used their own player to be the ref. So yea, the needn't pay for anything. So they simply didnt care abt the time wastage. Cos the field could only be used by us for like 2hrs. And tts not it. The ref go pump our ball which was alrite. Guess wat happened? The pin broke and we couldnt pump the ball already. the air tt was previously inside the ball was all taken out. So we couldnt use it. And the ball that they brought was not any better. Then the ref took both the balls to some bicycle pump shop to pump. It was 3.45 by the time our match properly started. Wa lao!!! My mood was simply spoilt. And today, we had like 20 over players. jus for our team. And we follow the idea of letting everyone play. So yea had to make lots of rolling subs.

As for the game itself, FitnessFirst were not as strong as i expected. I tot too highly abt them. But in the end, they were getting shagged very easily. Their players also not say very big. They were ok. Our midfield was pretty bad in the sense tt there were no one in the midfield to create the plays. Especially second half. Tt was pretty bad. But yea, we won 2-1. The one tt we let in was somehow tyco and went in cos we were damn messy. But its alright. Didnt really like the way we played cos something was jus missing. Next week trying to arrange for match but i dunno whether we will be able to. Time is running short.

Ok now for the emo part. One of my frens, Sara, has been admitted in the hospital for some minor jaw surgery. I am not sad abt it. Tts not it if u tot tt was it. Cos he chose to go for the operation for his braces! So if i was so worried abt it, its dumb. Well, its all abt the hospital tt he was admitted in. it was the Singapore General Hospital. On thur when Sara had to go to a temp ward, they actually gave him a ward at block 4, level 7. My mum was admitted in block 4, level 4. The bads, the place, the arrangements, the equipments, the atmosphere all reminded me of everything that happened that day, which i would never be able to forget. I got reminded of every single damn thing so easily. I could actully see my mum being admitted to the hospital, she talking to me from her bed, she eating when i was feeding her, she hugging me and behaving like a baby now and then. Hmmmm. And especially the last day when she was like in her own world. Looking so scared. Dunno wat she was staring at. But she was still moving. All jus came to my mind and kept flashing. Hmmm. And the pt where the doctor walked out to me, she lying there motionless and me crying my lungs out near the lift, ard the bed and the corridor. Haiz. The same thing happened when i visited Sara on Sat. I couldnt show my emo side cos all my frens were there. But if anyone tot i was exceptionally quiet, that was the reason. Hmmm. I dunno sia. Its something tt is making me tear from time to time. even today morning had to start out tt way. Yesterday nite again. Hmmm. I watched one movie and the mum will tell her son, u should hold my hand and walk and bring me places even when u get older. Reminded me of so many things. I never fail to hold my mum's hands when we cross road and when we take the steps. I was always concerned that she would fall or would get lost. The feeling of me holding her hands still could be felt. Even at the funeral, i was reminded of myself holding her hand everywhere i go. Jus tt the last time, her hand was so cold and she was lying like a stone. tears have been rolling from my eyes since tt day. They could never dry off and i m still tearing till this day. Only ppl who have lost their mum would know the meaning of that relationship. Its jus more than anything!!!
Ganeshan | 6:30 AM

This week started off really well. After one month since btt, i have finally found a proper private driving instructor. He was recommended by my fren, who said tt her fren pass the first time itself. And i went to do research on him ryte aftre, and he has many students who have passed the first time. Not bad for the long wait i guess. 8th of July will be my first lesson with him. Cooool!!! I got to get my lisence real soon. Cos Uni is like a month away. FTT is like Aug 1st and i gonna make sure i pass it. And if i do, it will be jus nice for me to sit for my PT. That mite be sometime ard late Sept if everything goes well. As for now i gotta make sure i do everything according to this timeline, as for my driving. Hopefully i can drive to sch asap.

The beginning of my last few weeks has been really bad as i would stay at home and nothing would have been planned ahead for tt week. But this week started differently. I caught this show, Never Back Down. The story is predictable but yea, i like movies of this genre. So was nice. The heroine, Amber HeARD, was super hot. She is jus 22 sia. Waaa! I did something really spectacular on Tuesday which is worth mentioning. Well guess wat? Rock Climbing. Well not exactly rock climbing cos none of us knew how to do belaying, if tts how u spell it. So we went fr bouldering which was to climb sideways. The bouldering place was awesome as it was like a two storey gym, with the cushion mat layed for both storeys and air conditioned. Perfect place to have fun. And at first only the three of us, Faye Daryl and myself were there. Then 3 other malay guys came who were like super gd. They tot us certain challenging ways to climb. So was really fun. Just tt, for me, i could not do one of the challenging ones as my palms re sweaty. So i could hardly hold on to the wall. But yea, i m definately gonna go again. The chicken rice at novena, opp the novena church is damn nice. The chicken was exceptionally gd. For those who didnt know such a place existed, go and try. Its really nice. Anyway mind's cafe outing after tt with ANU, suraen and krish was quite fun. Although i did well for Taboo, my partner did not for the first rd tt we had. Hmmm. But we somehow won hahaha.

Next monday, we re gonna cycle at east coast. I m so looking forward to it! Been quite long since i last cycled. I even had to start my driving lesson one day later cos of monday cos tts how much i wanna cycle. Hahaha. N soccer match this Sunday is confirmed at Deyi sec sch from 3pm to 5pm. And the week after tt also mite possibly have a match. I am not looking forward for the match this sunday like two weeks ago. Cos i am scraed tt it mite be cancelled again cos i notice tt it rains every sunday. Tts really bad. But hopefully, we get to play at least this week.

Hmmmm. I jus realised i have a gift still with me that didnt reach the person tt i bought it for. Not tt i dun wanna give. I already told that person tt after a certain day, we should meet and i will give the gift. But yea tt was like a month back. The person also forgot cos of their heavy load of work for the past whole month. And i think its not tt gd for me to remind them abt it too!!! Dun wanna make it look as if i die die have to pass them the gift. So now, i dunno wat i m gonna do with it. Surely, i wun give it to anyone else cos thats like damn cheapskate if i do tt. It will be like the gift was given for a sake of getting rid of it. Which means, i will have to hold on to it until tt person somehow remembers, which is like very impossible! Hahaha. If they dun, guess it will stay with me longer. I cant use it too cos it is meant for a female! Reason for me to say abt the gift was cos it has been in my room for a long period of time already. And it seems damn stupid tt its so hard to actually give someone a gift. Its just a gift anyway!!! I dunno laa. Sometimes its hard to even do good!
Ganeshan | 12:42 AM