Well, never knew pioneer would be such a pleasant place to live in, at least for the time being. The house is very conducive for my studying tt i have been studying more than ever! The house is currently very quiet cos my 2nd sis and the children have not move in yet! So dunno how the noise level would be after they shift in. But guess my room is quite distant from the rest of them so still good! I get to do my work in peace, which was what i wanted! Traveling to school is like so easy. It is at most a 20min journey haha! I love the part where i dun have to travel all the way to yishun. Also there re plenty of shops nearby, even jurong point is like a km away. So yea, not bad at all!

Anyway, my dad hasn't been coming home tt often. He is saying this place is too far for him and he feels annoyed coming back home. And i think he is staying at his friend's place. Now the thing is tt it was cos of my dear dad tt i agreed to stay in together with everyone, so tt his life would be so much easier at this old age. And on top of tt, he was the one who asked my sis to shift in together it seems. And after all this effort jus for him, this is wat he can give back! I seriously dunno wat has happened to him. Totally out of his mind and he hasnt been the same since start of the year. Has been acting very weird. Feel a bit neglected cos he cant even come home to see his son. I have been asking everytime on where he is and have been worried most of the time on why he hasnt come back home. But he thinks i just want him back home for the pocket money! I seriously dunno wat to say! Feel upset tt after my mum, there is no one as pure who would be concerned or bother abt me. Not tt i want the attention but at least my dad could be jus physically there for me. Nevermind, have been lonely all this while since feb 11 2008. So i seriously dun think i should expect for a miracle to occur!

Been quite focused in my work finally. Have been distracted by one or two things till now but now i am getting a control of my emotions and stuff. One of the stuff is what i have already mentioned in the previous para. The other is just a feeling of being cheated by someone who i think i have been close to. I feel that i have been back stabbed, though i have no evidence to prove. Thought someone who i was close wouldn't bitch abt me behind my back. But guess some do it to get closer to other friends. Hmmm nvm. Guess I'll just be silent about this and won't over react or what. Since i consider the person as my friend, i shall just forgive. But i think i won't forget. Hope whoever it is understands tt i am just being kind to them and have no intentions of harming them. So why harm me? In fact i am still being the same nice Garnie to them after all these, pretending not to know what they have done behind my back! Once i feel someone is a close friend of mine and if i value them so much, i would just to anything for them! This has been the case all this while and i just can't change tt. So pls dun hurt me till it causes me to stop this trend.

NTU's MAE has gone mad i guess! They have been changing the system overnight, just like tt, without informing us before hand. Fri nite when i checked for my modules in edventure for tutorials and stuff, i saw that two of my courses went missing. When i went to my ntu mail to check wat's happening, they have sent a mail to the MAE students tt all our 4au modules have been changed to 3au, but the contents will remian the same and so does the number of lessons. Also, we have to do one 3au module in our 4th year as the total number of AUs tt we re suppose to achieve is still the same. Haiz. Yet another change. As if bringing in EID into normal sem, changing tutorial classes into lects and adding two more hours of teaching to each lesson wasnt enough! Re they really trying their best to make sure we dun graduate? hahaha. I don't know but guess i have to face the music. Tt reminds me of some ppl who dun even know wat the fuck is going on despite coming to sch and all these ppl are Fucking dependent at the age of 22-23. Haiz. Seriously, these ppl make me feel sick. Dunno how ppl can be sooooooo slack! Well though its none of my business, feel tt some ppl re just wasting the spots offered to them by NTU. Give it to someone who knows the value of it laa! Haiz. Assholes!

Anyway, have stated what ever my heart told me to this time. Didnt really use my brains to think what the outcome would be if my friend ever reads my blog, which i doubt so, and whether they would know its them! Well even if they realise, all i can say is sorry cos i am someone who blogs abt things tt stays close to my heart! So if ur issue ever comes out here, tt should show how much of importance i am giving to you! Sighsssssss! Well enough said. Before i end off, just like to say tt laughter is seriously the best medicine. So even if u re feeling down, go to those ppl who u know would definately make u laugh or smile. Tt would make u forget ur problems. I am telling this through experience. Thanks to shalu who brought tt smile to me past week when i was pretty worried over something. And thanks to my clique in school who some how makes me hyper and aid me to forget whatever trouble tt is going on in my life and help me stay light hearted! And also thanks to those friends who at least bothered to find out how my new house/place is treating me! Shows tt these re friends who really care on even the smallest things tt happens in my life! So if u know u did ask, u re just being appreciated by Garnie/Teggie(or watever u know me as hahaha)! One last thing, Please listen to hasilae fisilae and vaarayo songs from the new suriya movie, aadhavan! I am crazily addicted to these songs. Damn nice! Adiyos!!!!
Ganeshan | 7:59 PM

ok, past week has been quite crazy! A lot of things happened and many changes have occured. Well, today i am typing from my new house at pioneer! To be honest, i was quite sad to leave yishun cos my adulthood started there and also i am very used to geting to places from yishun! The gd thing abt pioneer is that NTU is freaking near. Besides tt. it is gonna be tough. Anyway, i am impressed with my new room. Well, not just a room but an entire floor has been given to me! Hahaha! Wat more can i ask for. ITs like i have this whole study area on the third floor entirely for myself plus my room itself contains a bathroom. Its really big sia. It can get pretty scary since there is no one else sharing the 3rd floor with me. But somehow i feel so gd abt the room cos it jus makes me feel important in the house haha!

This week in school has been better than last week. I was terribly tired and was far from the study mode. But this week somehow i felt less tired and had done most of my tutorials. Mon received a gift from dhivya, who got it for me while she was in thailand. Normally i never expect anything from my frens cos i believe friendship is one thing tt u shouldnt expect anything in return. But appreciated a lot tt she cared to buy me something while there. As they always say, its the thought that counts. I truely appreciate tt. Tue met up with anitha. We were suppose to meet for a very long time but finally it happened on a school day itself. Was a very simply planned day and it was nice spending a day with her. We ate at botak jones and then went to NUS. I was sitting down for one of the NUS lectures. Was pretty scared when the prof wanted to divide the lect theatre into grps. He even wanted one team to come in front and present initially. I was thinking why must it be like tt for the only day tt i m gonna be there hahaha! Lucky one ass sounded off saying tt it would be better if that system was carried out from the following week! Heng ah! After the lect, anitha came over to my block cos i had to pass her something. I too got something from her and felt very gd once again. Two days in a row tt i was receiving gifts. Was a well spent day and i actually learnt how to use a new word tt keeps coming to my mind as it was said abt 100times within the few hrs. That word is none other than, "Dappi"!

The rest of the days have been pretty normal. Well got irritated by some incident on wed. Its just like a simple sentence but it affected me in quite a way. And at the same time i realised quite a number of things that i was not able to see for sometime cos of my trust for tt person. I have come to realise tt i shouldnt trust anyone tt easily. Cos u mite be backstabbed one day by them! Quite a painful thing it was but well heck it. At least i found out abt it now! Thur was another bad so so day. I was in diff moods for diff parts of the day. Again got irritated by something and was in a bad mood at nite. Dunno why laa, sometimes sucky stuff happens in life.

Anyway, been really tired out by the shifting. Dunno if i will be able to cope with these new place easily. Must learn how to get to places. Couldnt do much studying today cos i only settled down at abt 8.30 and was having a real bad headache. But guess tmr i will have all the time to do watever i wanna do. Ok, not gonna say anymore cos i am feeling pretty lazy now. Anyway bottomline for the day, dont trust anyone cos sometimes, even those u re close with, mite back stab u!
Ganeshan | 7:31 AM

Alrite back for updates abt whatever tt has happened. PAst Saturday was a very long day for me. Spent the start of the day at Vishnu's house. It was a farewell gathering. Well, i would say i had fun from the moment i entered his house. Vishnu can organise almost any event well taken care of! But sadly, i had to leave the gathering very early cos my sis's new son's naming ceremony was also on the same day. I went down to Singapore Indian Association at 6.30 sharp since my sis told me the event is starting at tt time. But i was quite shocked and irritated when i stepped into the function room. I was the first person to be part of the event besides the decorators and dj. Seriously, i wanted to spend more time with my fren who was gonna leave to sweden. But damn, jus cos it was told to me tt it was at six-thirty, i rushed my way down to the place. Best part, even my sis didnt turn up yet. These indians re always like tt. Never on time. It has become such tt when u re an indian, it is wrong to be on time! Seriously was irritated. Ok now abt the naming ceremony. Thank god had my fren who was decorating the place. I was super bored. My relatives, i hardly know them or talk to them. And normally i never been to any family events without my mum before. So it was really terrible for me as i was missing her company. The party would have been gd only if my mum was still ard. To be honest, i felt very bored at the party and felt tt the celebration was way more than wat someone would expect for a simple naming ceremony. The child would never know for goodness sake on what they re celebrating. But well, it was purely my sis's idea, and when they wanna do it for their child, wat right do i have to say that it is unnecessary. Just gave my views on such a big event tts all!

Anyway, monday met up with sharadha and shalu for a simple lunch outing. It was then tt my sis called and informed me tt we re definately shifting to pioneer! The good thing abt pioneer is tt its very near to my sch. Well the bad part is tt, it is practically far from everywhere else! haha. Nevermind, i hope it will be alright staying together. A few of my frens have said tt it would be good and tt i could take it as an oppurtunity to unite with almost my entire family again. Let's see how it turns out to be. Will be shifting as soon as 3 weeks from now. Things re really happening real fast.

Tue was prawning with shalu sharadha kalai. Suvin veera and Kabilan made a guest appearance haha. But well, was a different outing. Had done prawning jus once before and this was my second. It was nice! Wed was another day out with suresh, suraen and sachdev. Thur decided to stay at home. Fri was quite nice cos met up with rama after some time together with suresh and suraen. We watched the hangover from first row. Man, i would never watch a movie from tt row again. My neck was aching super bad after tt. The screens in GV re fucking high and the first row seats re very close to the screen. Only A fucking moronic asshole would have made such a structure. Seriously, why did they even want such seats to be part of the theatre. That fellow who planned it must be seriously insane. It is bad for ur eyes, bad for ur neck and dun feel comfortable despite watching it in theatre. Well, fuck GV man! Lousy architecture! Well the only gd thing was tt, the show was damn hilarious and was so worth watching it in cinemas. I enjoyed it thoroughly. After tt, played pool with these guys after so long right after tt. Rama said this might be his last outing with us before his A levels. So was a nice day out with him.

Saturday was a super awesome day. Met up with almost the entire bunch of sji ppl after so so long. Ever since we guys stopped our soccer last january, its been hard to gather our guys out for any outing. But yesterday we had a good turnout of ard 8 ppl in total. Not bad taking into consideration tt it is after so long. We played a 4 v 4 tf2 match. My team of Sachdev suresh suraen and myself sort of trashed the opponents. But guess it wasnt a very fair competition. Hope to have more of it soon. As usual we ended our night eating away at some place, this time burger king.

I have left my sunday and monday unplanned. one simple reason is becos of sch. But of cos, if anyone of u'll would wanna go out with me, hahaha, do tell me. I feel so irriated tt holidays re like ending. Have to work non stop when sem starts. And need to buy lots of textbooks it seems and i am awfully broke! Dunno how i gonna buy! Haiz. Anyway not really looking forward to sch. Friday it was confirmed tt i have gotten the elective i wanted, which was forensic science. I wasn't worried at all actually abt not getting it, so i was not surprised at all when i actually got it. Damn sch, but nonetheless, gotta do it well this sem no matter wat.

There is one thing tt i have realised over all these years with my frens. Slowly the frens tt i have met for the past twenty two years are disappearing. I once heard from one of my army frens, who is much older than me, saying tt in a few years time, my life will be like his cos its very hard to gather friends and meet them when we grow older. It is very true actually. My sji gang are the only ppl tt i can meet whenever i want to. The rest are somewhat busy all the time and some dun even bother. Even during the holidays, u hardly hear from some friends who u were once so close with. Some pretend as if they re super busy. Dun tell me you cant like get like just ard 3-4 hrs to meet someone in a month of 30days. Well, its just whether u want or not. Some ppl are really genuinely busy and tt i understand. They go thru a lot of shit and yet, it was nice knowing tt they still rmb tt there was a plan to meet up. But some frens i feel tt they re just ur friends for that time period. To make sure their life is filled with company at tt point of time. After tt, they will hardly rmb u. These ppl re those who dun really know who true friends are. They hardly know the meaning of friendship. But well i harldy can care about these kinda ppl anymore. What difference does it make. Its their loss. i have still got plenty of frens who have been very close to me for years. I hardly appreciate frens who are good with words, but not showing it with their actions. So if u re one, pls go find someone else to be ur part-time fren. Not me! Hahaha!
Ganeshan | 11:00 PM