ok finally i think i m a bit free to post something up. Had been very occupied with my projects for marketting! There are like 4 projects entitled for us. I have already done like two and there re two remaining. Also, my special sem should be ending in abt two weeks time! Seriously, cant wait but i think so far though its tough, i m pretty okay with it! Its all for the good at the end of the day!

Two weeks ago as i posted i actually said how my team was looked down at and tt i wanted to prove this jackasses wrong. Well, i think i have done exactly tt and it took me two projects for tt. Since the next lesson onwards i had been very determined to talk in class and answer watever questions and give my opinions. Make sure ppl know i exist. And for my case study project, we actually selected harry potter which the class laughed at us initially. But guess wat, we did awesomely well though one bladie bastard in my team backed out last min and didnt turn up for the presentation. Tt was really last min. But i didnt want to carry the presentaion to next week cos it would be a hindrance to my other two. And since my other grp memebers were all prepared, i decided we should jus go ahead with it. I volunteered to do that bastard's slide together with one of my other team members and yea, i think we did better than wat the guy would have done, though it was last min talk cock. Great! During the Q and A session, i jus managed to whack any questions tt came my way and i even lied for one which everyone believed. Feel so gd tt the class sorts of looks up to us now and i have sort of accomplished wat i wanted to. But its not over yet, since we got two more major projects coming up! Got lots more to prove.

Well, yesterday was the release of term results. My goal was to achieve ard 4 for gpa to offset my previous term's bad performance. I didnt manage to get 4 but still, i was very happy with 3.66 tt i got. My chem really pulled my gpa down. Manage to do quite well for all my other modules. Chem was a C so tt was my weakness and i knew it too. So yea i m quite satisfied with my grades and feel a huge sense of relief! Since the start of the sem i have set my priorities right and avoided watever mistakes i did last sem, and on top of it was quite consistent with my work. It did prove to do me gd at the end of the day. I am happy with the path tt i actually took. Special thanks to Veera, who actually had the guts to come out to me and advice me at the start of the sem. Its very hard to advice a person like me but still he took the effort to and he woke me up to my senses. I really appreciate it a lot. I swear i did listen to his advice and tt caused me to set lots of things right from the start. So yea veera, if u ever read this, Really Thank You! There re some frens really essential in ur life tt would understand where we come from and veera is one of them. He knew wat i exactly needed and he knows wat i should actually strive for. Being a fren and trying to make me feel better from my worries is one thing. Almost any fren could do tt and some might go overboard with it. But veera jus made it simple tt if i had problems get rid of them first before i start working for wat is most impt! Thanks again for tt.

I do feel very sad for some of my frens who have underperformed. They re ppl who can really do well but they were all in some kindaf distraction since the start. But yea shit does happen at times. the main thing tt everyone has got to learn is that to set ur priorities ryte. Once u know it, u should be able to perform. So jus dun give up, there is always next sem to work for the better.

I am generally a happy man now. Not really bothered abt the issues surrounding me in my family or outside. I have jus distracted myself from those worries with work and gd frens. And thankfully there is no one reminding me abt my past or abt my problems. That is a gd sign. I dun wanna live having high hopes though. Life might be very happy one day and take a tremendous downfall anytime. It happned to me before. I have learnt from it in a very painful way. So yea, whether happiness or sadness, jus take it and look at the brighter side of things.

Last week had a sji guys chalet at a very nice place, seaview resorts near changi village. Awesome place. After damn long met up with all these guys again and though it was a very simple chalet, enjoyed every moment there. With gd company, no matter wat u do, u will always feel gd. I have always felt tt way with my sji brothers. They jus are the source of enjoyment and happiness in my life. Great to have met each of my sji frens. Great guys indeed. Thanks to Dhinesh to have organised such a nice and simple chalet.

Basically tts all i have to blog abt. Guess will be back again when i am free the next time ard! See ya peepz! And for ur info, Budweisers re the best beers in the world! haha
Ganeshan | 1:42 AM

ok actually i was half a mind to post something up but well since i jus feel like, i will jus do it now!! Have been following this blockbuster drama on ch5! If u still dunno there is such a local drama tt is much talked abt in recent times, well its Red Thread! Adrian pang jus rocks in the whole drama and i jus love his character, the way they have shaped it! Since i m naturally in favour with villains than heroes, i seem to appreciate the role of adrian pang a lot! Awesome. For those who re still not watching it, pls do! Cos its really gd!

Thanks to all of ya who wished me happy holidays after my exams ended.Unfortunately, my holidays ended as soon as they started haha! Tue i started going for special sem! Well, definately a bad start. Kindaf irritated with a certain grp of ppl. And i have began realize some things only as we age in life. Definately not something gd i would say,in this context. It sucks to be the minority sometimes and i finally do feel this way after all this yrs! Like why some ppl do give us the feeling tt i m a minority? Take it a bus ride, the seat beside me is fucking empty, but it doesnt get filled up, best case is getting filled up last. Why? Am i tt smelly. Is it a thought tt runs across these particular grp of ppl tt some kindaf stinking aura stays with us all the time. Like why? If i am not wrong, i think i have never gone anywhere out without bathing. Can these insensitive ppl ever say the same thing! I seriously dun think so! I have always respected and taken with light heartedness all the racist jokes tt came my way for the past 22yrs. But sometimes some ppl really do mean some stuff and it jus gets to our nerves. I jus have to take it tt not everything is perfect in this world so there ought to be ppl like tt. But ntu jus has too much of these bunch. Assholes!!!

Anyway back to special sem, things didnt start off well. Since there were three guys of the same race sitting together at the same table, it became such tt we were left by ourselves and none of them in the class wanted to be a grp with us. I can sort of understand tt,so its ok! If i was the non-indian in the grp, i would feel out of place too. So this is not an issue. But, there is this grp of monkey faces tt jus looks down on us cos of who we are and they jus laugh at us for whatever we do. Its not as though they re laughing at us as we re doing something stupid and ridiculous, its jus a laughter tt simply means to look down on us! Since tt very moment,i have decided to give my full force to this marketting module and gonna prove to this bunch of morons tt it takes some standard for them to actually laugh at me! I will make sure they remember me and my grp for our speaking skills and ability to trash them all when it comes to presentations! Just wait and see wat i am capable of doing! Fucking assholes.

I met up with some frens tt i really wanted to meet for such a long time! Been like quite sometime since i saw them but finally did on monday and tue respectively! Though it was a simple dinner, the time i sepnt with raja and ashwini was jus awesome.Never fail to enjoy and be happier whenever i am with such nice ppl ard! Was nice chatting with these two after a long long time! Tue met up with shalu. I jus enjoy whenevr i am out with her. Jus gives me the feeling that she is my little sister and she never fails to make me smile. Sort of missed her company after like 3 weeks. Though i met her for her birthday celebration last sunday, was not so fulfilling as i guess both of us were very tired and there were a huge bunch of ppl there so we didnt have quality time to talk to one another properly! But there is jus this little thing tt shalu seems to resemble quite a bit. Its the way my mum was to me and how we were to one another. Really nice to see a little resemblence there! Jus brings back the nice moments i had with my mum all this yrs!

I have been coming across a lot of mother's day gifts! Jus getting a little bit affected by them but yea not so much like wat i thought. I have been still getting her stuff though she aint physically here with me! Hope it jus reaches out to her. Same for this mothers day. I jus saw this bunch of roses tt i think i will buy for her. Jus somehow feel she is watching me and she would love me to present her with things like tt. This is the least i could do to show my gratitude to such an awesome person like her. I am damn sure there wun be anyone who would have made such an impact in my life like how my mum has, be it the happiest moment or the saddest moment. Happiest would be how she brought me to this world and showing me that there re no bounds for a mother's love to her son. The saddest being, she parting me to live my life on my own teaching me in a very painful manner tt nothing really last forever!

I sort of know what i am doin in life. No matter how close i get to someone, i do draw a limit or line tt doesnt allow them to think any further. Though there re some ppl exception to this rule, for most i have drawn this line. I think its best to continue life like tt without any other thoughts coming to my mind cos those would be utter distractions. I am definately feeling happier day by day and accepting this loniliness AT HOME. There re some advantages of feeling this sense of loneliness too. I have somewhat started to appreciate tt. As life goes, its better to accept what we already have, rather than to reach for something tt is not so possible. Of cos reaching ur goals is a seperate issue from this. As long as u know u have dreamt realistically, go for it. If not, jus dream on!!!!!!!

Oh yes, finally drank as much as i could, though not tt much, at angie's surprise 21st party last thur! The brother was a solid host. He jus told me to order as much as i want as long as i am happy! Great. I drank abt 6-7glasses and couldnt take anymore. The last time i sat down to drink was new yr eve. After tt was jus a cup during my birthday but tt doesnt really count. I think there is one big drinking party coming next fri at some chalet.But due to the swine flu, i have this feeling tt the party is most probably cancelled so i wun have any high hopes!

Finally for those who wanna meet me if u miss me so much, please please do haha! My special sem classes is like only two days and its on tue and thur in the morning for three hrs. So practically i am free for almost any day! I would love to catch up with those who i really havent seen in a long time! Oh yes, met an awesome fren tt i couldnt reach at all for like yrs! It was prashan. My respect and care for him as never changed a single bit and i was so happy to have bump into him last saturday! Great great feeling. Hope to organise some mini track outing with my yr guys soon! Really do miss them! Alright, i jus have this series of things popping into my mind and for me to blog, but guess i would rather stop here. If not this wouldnt stop! Branthawus(jamaican way to say adiyos).
Ganeshan | 5:42 AM