A rather sensitive comment by someone close is stuck to my head for almost a week already! Jus feel a little fucked up abt it for sometime. The comment was actually abt my family! Well.......... i think my family didnt leave a gd impression on my fren apparently. I didnt realize then that just by me letting out so many things innocently, tt its gonna leave a bad mark on me. Hmmmm.
Wat can i say, my first sis fucked it all up for my entire family. And now i'm being punished for someone else's fault jus like always. Why? I know my sis damamged the family's reputation to the extreme. Once, we were the family whom everyone looked up to. I have a very good mother and father. They re the nicest wisest ppl tt i ever know of. My father is so truthful and hardworking all his life and he loves his wife so much and he cares for his kids limitlessly. My mum i've already said enuff, she is simply an angel, there is no one who could come as close to her. I'm not saying this jus cos she is my mum, but she truely is a great woman. No one ever tot my family was not gd enuff. No one! But now, after watever my sibling did to the family, it seems as if i came from a damaged family. It is at this pt of time tt i wish my mum was ard. She would never had allowed so many things from happening. She really took the family and its reputation to a whole new level but once she left us, everything seems gone. Is it my fault? Despite me having the gd traits from my dad and mum and being truthful and genuine and loving towards those close to me, i'm jus being looked down at due to my family. Hmmmm. There was nothing i could do when my sister runied things up for the family, i really didnt have any control of things. But now, see how my sisters have caused a stain to be present in my life forever!!!
Ganeshan | 4:51 AM
i realise i have one very big problem with me. I jus LOVE my frens a lot. The list of frens tt i love and would do anything for is quite big. But no matter how much i love them, i have one thing tt has hit me now. I am not sure if all these frens love me even half as much... hmmm...
Life has somehow become quite busy now tt i can hardly think of anything else other than work. I realise tt sch life will surely be the best times of our lives cos once u start working, there is no turning back and u will be sucked into the robotic system of life. Anyway, a positive thing to take from such hectic life is tt it prevents ya from thinking watever else tt is going on in life. It jus keeps me away from the rest of the world so tt is one thing i like at least for now.
Ganeshan | 6:27 AM