Heyy! I'm back after successfully completing a week of In-Camp Training(ICT). Well mixed feelings abt the camp. Well it definately wasnt as easy as i tot it would be, in fact it was pretty tough the first two days especially. However, i sort of enjoyed it, cos of the company. Yes, i m not joking. I enjoyed being there cos i was able to see all my army frens after a very long period. And we like stayed in the same bunk jus like our NS days. Was pretty cool to have everyone ard, including the man. I definately would not wanna defer for next yr cos tt would disallow me to do the next ict with my own guys. The reason why i might defer is because i would most probably appl for sweden exhange programme. So if my stay down there extends beyond the reservist day, then i have no choice but to defer. So lets see how.
Anyway, my army fellows are one of the nicest fellows ard. My toe nail sort of came of tearing my skin abit during a tau-pok session on Xaviar. It was terribly painful and i jus excused mysel to go toilet and wash off the blood. But all the guys came to my aid and i was pretty touched with the way all of them poured their concern upon me. Really quite touched. i didnt really express right then how i felt cos tts not exactly wat i do, but well i think i was pretty moved... Thanks guys.
Well, the ppl who care for ya the most are somehow most evident in important times, like during ICT. I m not talking abt my fellow army guys here now. I m talking abt those who took the trouble to check out on me during my stay in camp. I dunno abt others, but for me, i personally feel tt for whoever who check on ppl like us during times like this, they re the ones who truely think and care for us, and this re the ppl who value us the most. That is my believe on this. There is a reason why i go to this extent to appreciate a simple msg or call from frens during ICT. Well, it personaly means a lot to me because when i was in the army serving NS last time, my mum would be the one person who would truely show her concern by talking to me, getting to know wat is going on in camp and how i am treating it and all. She really bothered how i was at times like this. It is when u re inside that u re like removed from the outside world. So any initative taken by ppl from this outside world would really mean a lot since we re going thru a prison kindaf life inside. For those who actually texted me and cared abt me for this past one week, really thanks. There were like 4-5 frens who bothered to check on me. Thanks really! I will always treasure u'll for this little bit that u'll did.
One more week of holidays left before i step my foot on keppel, starting on the 26th. Have quite a few outings left before i am pulled into the working world. Hopefully i enjoy myself one last time before i hardly could find any time for myself.
A very weird thought and a scary feeling is within me. I am really reluctant these days on certain matters. I am always having my doubts on it. Of cos i m being more careful. I dun want to fall again or be bitten again. Somehow, i have a bad feeling abt this. Hmmmm, i am gonna be left rotting at the end of the day..thats wat i feel. Hopefully i m not left to such a stage, but it is possible. What has to happen, will happen, so lets just take things as it happens to us!
Ganeshan | 6:26 PM