2 more days and Industrial Attachment starts for me. There ends my holidays :( .....
Why cant they just extend it together with the rest of the NTU,since they start on 30th August. Aaiya nvm guess i jus gotta settle down at work. Damn

Anyway i was trying to make full use of my last one week of holidays. Was out practically everyday. Guess i wun go into the details of what i did for each day. Maybe just abt wednesday itself.

So on wednesday, i took a train all the way down to toa payoh to meet my buddy, who jus returned back from India after a 5weeks stay there. She landed only on tue. And i never tot i would meet her the next day itself, simply cos she jus landed and it wouldnt be so possible. It wasnt really a planned one, cos i never tot meeting her would be anytime soon since i wasnt free besides wednesday itself for the entire week, and after tt my IA was gonna start. So i tot i wouldnt be seeing her for quite sometime. But somehow, during the early hrs of wednesday, she msged and asked me if i was free and told me she has to go to the doc to check on some insect bite. So yea, i ended up at her place on wednesday afternoon. Had my lunch with my buddy and her mum and we ate freaking lots. She wouldnt know, but i was enjoying myself just seeing her back after so long. Missed her a lot. Glad tt she is back. I hope i'd have the chance to see her more though, but somehow IA is gonna keep my days very busy. But well, welcome back my dear buddy! Was great spending an entire afternoon with ya!

Watched inception. OMG. Purely amazing. I dunno how someone could come up with such a brilliant script. ITs a movie where u have to pay 100percent full concentration. Just shifting ur eyes or thoughts away from the screen for even a few seconds would lead u to wonderland. I am simply awed by how such a movie was taken. Of cos for some, they would need to see the movie a few more times to understand. I didnt understand everything the first time too but somehow i knew 80percent of wat was going on. Looking at such movies, i m ashamed by how some tamil movies and its directors re so backwards. They fucking take movies which really doesnt need any creative juices. Any tom dick harry would be able to come out with such stupid scripts. On top of tt, u see a pathetic actor like Vijay signing up for such movies forever. These re ppl who re bringing the tamil films and its industry 20 yrs back from wat its suppose to be today.

This is some after thoughts from a very interesting conversation tt i had with my buddy dhivya. We were discussing on how indian guys were like always wanting to be more than frens with the girls tt they get very close too. Well for me personally, i have quite a few close female frens. Somehow i have had interest on two of them before. But there re also these other few tt i have purely behaved only as a fren. I only wanted to be their fren ryte from the start, though they were awesome girls themselves. I dunno but i guess its true to a certain extent that all of us(the guys) will have an intention more than friendship when we re too close with someone. Tt happened to me very recently when i tot i should take my frienship to one level higher. But thats when things turned to be pretty bad. Glad tt now its all over.

So re platonic friendships really possible? Yesterday one of my army frens said its never possible and it will never exist. But i can say tt he is wrong, especially when it comes to me cos i m a living example. I did fall in love with a couple of them but at the end of the day, we ppl are all gd platonic friends and we re going strong somewhat. Somehow u understand fully about someone, after all the bitter moments, like the one i had with dhivya, just to cite an example. I somehow understood tt both of us were better off by being jus friends. She can really be an awesome fren and she herself realizes it. After knowing her chracter so well, i find tt its very true. YOu cant force such a friend to like love ya the way you want. And i didnt understand tt till all those things happened a few months back. So only through moments like tt, will ya learn about someone more. Somehow, i am very clear with myself now and i dun want to be involved with any kindaf love or watsoever, at least for the next two yrs. I want to graduate in peace, without going through a pain tt i mite inflict on myself. But of cos, my eyes re always open scouting for new faces hahaha. I am trying to spot ppl but somehow, i have like no history or watsoever with the ppl i have seen so far. I m talking abt ppl who i just came across while i am outside. I dun even know where they study and stuff. And even if i did know, i dun have a single mutual fren to like get to know these ppl. I dunno, at this rate i am gonna end up with arranged mariages i guess hahahaha.

Oh well, i think i am satisfied with the way things re and the way i am to ppl ard me. At least i dun see any immediate problem ahead of me with any of them. All kinds of fault or distrust have been cleared somehow. As u can see i will never use the word tt "i m happy" with the way things re now. Cos whenever i m happy abt something, it doesnt last for long. Therefore, i am jus satisfied with how things re now and i shall jus have zero expectations from all these. This is one way, i realize, to live a carefree life!
Ganeshan | 8:39 PM