Haha, well i am smiling. Cos i enjoyed myself the whole of yesterday and guess my very close frens aint gonna be happy. But well, truth is no one knows better than me abt wat happened and there re so much of history and memories involved and not just the arguements and quarrels tt these ppl know of. For me to have asked for and made yesterday happened was cos of the one thing tt i realised and appreciated. When i had to ask myself who was the one who made me smile the most throughout the past yr, there was only one name tt came to me and tts the same name tt made me smile for almost the entire yr. So many nice and sweet memories. How can i put the negativity before such lasting memories. Lucky tt i saw things in a pretty diff way and never got influenced no matter wat advice came to me. Not to put down all my other frens who cared for me so much and adviced me for my own gd, but guess i'm the only one who can see the entire picture clearly since its between two people.
The world woudlnt really agree with a guy girl friendship being so close together. But wat if it exist? There is sure gonna be more specualtions tt this wun last than ppl saying its alright. But wat matters the most is how the guy and gal recieve tt friendship and the trust they have between one another. I think i had to ask tt question yesterday to make sure tt i m trusted, cos the last time the answer was otherwise and tt really broke my heart like no other fren had done to me. But well, this time it was a more appropriate answer though it wasn't fully trust as the answer. Well i dun wanna influence any answer out of anyone, but wat i can say is tt i have been really tt truthful to the level tt i have not been to anyone else in my life.
I am quite irritated with how others re dragged into the picture between me and my fren. Wat ever probs tt exist is between the both of us. Be it the cousins or close frens, they have no reason to ask me to back off. Seriously who the fuck re they to say tt. I dun see why this ppl re so angry. They only know 1/4 of the story and not even 1/2. I wasnt too happy abt how one of the cousins reacted by wanting me to back off and totally stop talking. Of cos for him to have made such a statement, he should have been told a diff version of the story, and i think it wasnt fair for wat had happened to have reached his ears. But nevertheless, wat has happened has happened. But just to let everyone know, anyone who wants me to back off, no matter who it is, if u dare say it to my face, u'd probably gonna recieve the worst beating of ur life, no matter who the fuck you re. Nobody tries to break my friendship with someone for any reason, unless the person involved herself wants it to end. But i am quite sure that wun happen at all, i have my trust in her.
Guess enuff has been said abt tt. There are nicer things to talk abt which was yesterday. I dun know abt her but i did enjoy every moment with her. Truth is i am very sad tt she's gonna leave on the 12th for a period of one month. And it is definately gonna be very tuff to meet for almost the entire yr since both of us will be seperated by IA, work and sch. I wanted to do as much as i can with her yesterday. And yes coming to think abt it, a lot was done. Bowling, arcade, shopping, fountain and song dedication, dinner and finally we ended of at clark quay. I did enjoy the dinner surprisingly though i tot i wouldnt like the food. But i actually did. And for once, she was the beggining for everything!!!(for that dinner only actually haha). I was dispappointed with the laser dedication, really wanted to do it but damn, the plan jus failed. But nevermind, at least the dedication was read out. Guess i was still the beggining for that segment in her life haha.
She should be wondering why i wanted her to pick out dresses that she likes. I wun ask someone to do something without having something in mind. Just gotta wait for the answer. I hope i cleared everything with her though i couldnt really say everything i had in mind cos her frens had arrived by then. Well, hopefully there will be a phonecall or something else before she flies off. But well, i was happy just to see my buddy yesterday. It is a nice feeling everytime i meet her. I actually kinda confessed tt i was gonna laugh out loud the day when she was angry... hahaha. Coming to think abt it, i should have jus hecked it and laughed. Tt was the true feeling. Furthermore, me forcing myself to be angry tt day jus cos she was angry didnt bring out any gd. Damn, wrong move.
A lot of things could have happened but end of the day she is still important as a fren to me and i cant let it go that easily. In fact i will never let go. As far as i m concerned, this is one frienship tt is really diff in a lot of aspects yet very important to me and i will do anything to sustain it. My buddy will always remain close to my heart no matter wat, and guess tts wat defines the last word in the term bbf!!! I'll miss ya dearly bbf......
Ganeshan | 8:48 PM