As each day passes, it feels like something is taken out of me. I dunno wat makes me feel as such. Maybe its a combinations of various reasons. Whatever tt made me smile in the yr 2009, have all turned upside down. I never expected such incidents to ever happen but it did. And the best i can do is to live with it. As though everything is so perfect in my life, i have to step onto a new phase in life now. Even i dun know where the next step is but i know it is abt time. One thing i have realised in my life is tt the moment i become happy abt something and start to live with tt happiness, it jus goes away from me sooner or later. It just keeps happening.

I remember i was staying away from all troubles from the start of 2009. Just making sure i would be able to come out of the darkness tt surrounded me for an entire yr. A few incidents tt also made things worse then, caused me to just stay away and ignore watever tt was happening in my life. I seriously felt much better then. I didnt have to worry abt anything. LiFe was going on pretty fine and i was doing well in sch and all. After tt, a chain of incidents occured. A lot of things tt changed my life in a very huge way, happened then in 2009. As i said earlier, i felt happy for all of tt and i started living with it. Probably one of the best yrs for me. Haiz. I came out of the darkness much sooner than i expected. Thanks to one of them in specific for adding that colour to my life. The shift to the new place, reuniting with my sis was another major change tt boosted my happiness even further. Every change seemed like its for the better. The results in sch reflected how confident and happier i was.

365 days later, now i am standing here, lost almost all tt were the reasons for my happiness jus a yr before. How is it possible tt life has taken one huge 180degress turn? I really dunno but guess this is all fated. I realise i only have myself at the end of the day to help myself. Its just me alone. So far i have taken all the beatings life has been giving me and i am surprised i can still stand. But seriously i am wearing out. Withering away. As everyone would advice and suggest, i'm too am looking forward for a better future and hoping tt it would come soon....
Ganeshan | 9:36 PM