Mother's day!!! Let the whole world celebrate! Let them enjoy. Such a day to celebrate it with ya have been stolen away from me. The only person who have loved me back the same way i have loved them. This world doesnt have anyone else who can get as close as u could get to me. No matter how hard i try, i would never see anymore of that kinda love, from anyone else. If only u were here, i will never be complaining. Hurt deep withing but smiling on the surface. It is not my mistake tt i became an emotional ass. U suddenly laying dead in front of me wasnt an easy sight to digest. It took me a yr plus to wipe the tears off completely, tears that came out the same way as the first day itself. Even now they still do, just tt it is not as much as it was before. 21 yrs of smile and laughter, all snathced and turned ard me in a moment of seconds. Not that i have shown my emotional sight to every tom dick and harry. The very few, or the only one who i had chosen to show the emotional sight of me has put me down for gd! Shows that not everyone is acceptive of what u re to them. U were one diff person who accepted me for whatever i was and i never felt rejected. Till this stage of my life, i have never felt the feeling of rejection. But now its diff mum. The people who i end up loving a lot are the ones who reject me in the end. I'm scared to love mum. I m turning into a rock, without emotions as each day passes. I dun feel like caring for anyone. Everyone just leaves away, cos they re all revolved ard their own selfish worlds. U were the last person i knew who never cared abt ur ownself but cared for ur loved ones more. Gd that i m ur son and i have gotten that trait from ya and i am proud to be one as it makes me diff from all the other selfish asses out there. Watever it is, just want ya to know that i aint tearing this time cos ur son is stronger than ever from all the hurdles i have crossed. From All the hard learnt lessons abt love that has been taught to me the most painful way, i have become stronger. And i m never gonna be the same again with my emotions, there is no one else in this fucking world who deserves to see that sight of me! Even if i emote, it is not as though they will accept it with open arms. If i were to think that anyone would, there cant be anyone else more stupid than me. But nevertheless, i have to put up with all these kinda diff people. The best is gone and the worst has happened, so wat more can i lose. Anyway, hope u re safe up there and well to end this off, Happy Mother's Day to ya My LOvely Mummy. Ur re the best in every single aspect of my life and u will always be. U had not just been a great mum, but u were God to me. IF i dun pray to God, thats cos of ya. I dun feel God is any greater than u. Why believe in someone who has never been there for me, unlike u who have always been the one shielding me from every single dark sight of the world!! Haiz, but now that u re gone, i realise that the world is indeed a very dark place to live in. Miss ya forever My Dearest Mum... Hugs!!
Ganeshan | 7:38 PM