Everything was so fine right till the very end of yesterday, jus before i was gonna sleep. I was taken back to the thoughts abt how my mum would feel abt me if she was still ard. Guess i should have avoided any form of communication with people. The only person i was ok talking with throughout yesterday was anitha, and well she'd know why. Besides the both of us, no one would have an idea of how it feels. But well, i wasn't emo or wat at all, but my mood was jus turned ard as i said before the day was over.
Anyway i hate all those fucking asses who have to fucking wish their mum on fb! Cb as if their mum have fb like tt. Dun pretend laa u mother fuckers. Dun try to tell the world how much u care and gain attention. If u wanna wish, do it personally and take the initiative to do something instead of like wishing on fucking facebook. CCB, all u fucking asses who did tt. Oh, there re also some asses who would go ard typing on facebook status how much they miss their girls and how they re feeling down without them and so. Hahaha, i just feel this people are more concern with wat people will comment abt them. Fuckiing sympathy gainers. The people who u'll type to definately will have handphones. So please do it there and dun be some sorry ass gaining for unnecessay attention.
Anyway, i feel if someone cares abt ya, they would rather show it instead of just saying it. Cos a lot of my frens actually do show it. But well a certain few they hardly go beyond the extent of saying it and they usually go abt saying how much they care and all just that they dun show. Tts as gd as not even caring actually, cos u dun have to be afraid to show ur concern. I have come to a pt where i dun trust people thru their mouths. And well well, i am not a little bit concern on who does and does not show their concern. This is simply cos whenever u think someone cares, they will bring it to a pt where we do expect such concern from them as time progresses but that's when they start to neglect ya totally. And they have some weird reasons to back them up so yea. I have gone thru enuf of such acts so i dun feel like really sharing with people on how i feel. Cos i have never done that for those who know me, except with one or two. Anitha ,being one of the two, u have been nice in the sense that u have never complain abt me sharing my thoughts and they way i feel with ya. Thanks for tt. But besides her, guess I rather blog it out. Its only for the past yr or wat i tot maybe i'd actually speak it out to my fren cos i tot at least my fren would respond, whereby a blog doesnt. But well, i became an emotional ass by doing so, and it wasnt too well recieved. Blogs doesnt judge me based on wat i type at least, so its safe here.
Things have changed and i feel i am no longer the pleasant fellow who i used to be. I am living my life, without depending on anyone. It's only when u depend on someone and start believing that they'd be there for you, that disappointment sets in. So guess its better to stay away from such believes and hope, cos no one in this world is tt caring afterall, with very little exceptions of course! And i dunno why, i jusy feel very villainy nowadays hahaha!
Ganeshan | 6:32 PM