Damn, today is the last day of holidays and i feel totoally sucky!! Dun wanna go sch haiz! It will be an endless mugging period all the way. Anyway, cant help it but have to go! And damn i didnt get my elective this time around. Well i m definately not alone on this. Ryte now have to go thru the stupid process of appealing and the add drop period! Sucks la.

Enough of sch there, i dun even wanna think abt it for now. Well, glad that my buddy is alright now. It has been a few days already. I have tried my best to make sure i keep track with her each day and to divert her thoughts by asking totally unrelated qns now and then haha! Jus wanted to make sure she is feeling normal. It feels as though i am going thru the same process, thats how much affected i am by it. Feels as though watever that has happened has happened to me. Guess thats why she is my bbf! I think i hardly get affected by anyone else's issues but this is just exceptional!

I have been out the entire week. And i think i was only coming back home to like sleep. I dunno but i m jus trying to fully utilise my holidays cos i know abt myself. I will never get to go out that much after sch reopens. I watched like two movies this week itself, sherlock holmes and invictus! Both were very gd movies. Worth the money i paid. Besides the movies i have been playing lots of pool jus this week alone. Feels like my gd old jc days haha. Celebrated veera's bdae last monday and it was a small but nice celebration. He was very happy and i could see that haha. We also played bowling that day, was quite fun. Finally got to meet up with shalu sharadha ashwini and raja after like dunno how long. Never met these ppl for ages. But yea was a very short but nice outing. Nice to see all of them. I was somehow very distracted and disturbed for days before that. Guess i dun have to repeat the reason behind that but yea meeting these grp of ppl really made me feel much better. And thanks to rama haha. He just distracts my thoughts so bladie easily by talking nonsense to me non stop and causing me to utter even more nonsense. Hahaha. He was a reason for my heavy expenditure this week alone. He made me go to all those big restaurants and spend hell lots for food. Hahaha. And thur met up with my dear anitha haha! She brought me to the new sommerset building just outside of the mrt station. We ate at the italian kitchen there. The food was quite nice but the soup was like bladie hell so much. Haha. But was nice to have met her after a really long time. Enjoyed myself.

I realise that there re only a few ppl that i can actually explain everything inside my heart to. There was once someone said guys re more complicated than gals and i actually denied that. But now coming to think abt it, yes maybe, they were right. So many things going on within me. But i have to act normal in front of all my friends. There re only two ppl who know watever that is going on with me for now. I cant even say it to the person closest to my heart now cos its very hard. Wat a world this is hahaha! I hope it all ends up well. Its not in my hands though. There re some things that u dun have any control of. I'll let time take its course yet again.
Ganeshan | 6:38 PM