Hi my dear frens, its been such a long time since i updated this blog! I wanted to, immediately after returning from my phuket trip. But guess it took me another ten days to finally set my mind to blogging! Guess i'm not gonna go into details of the phuket trip like i wanted to. The photos in fb will roughly show how much we enjoyed! So i shall follow the saying," A picture says a thousand words!" So see from it.

As we all know, today is the end of the yr 2009! The absolute last day of the yr. The most appropriate post that i can come up with on this day would be to review my entire yr. In the review before this yr, u could notice how much suffering and pain i went thru for 2008. We shall see how this yr has treated me.

2009, a yr with many changes! All the changes were somehow for the gd. When compared to 2008, 2009 is surely a great boost! Its a really fulfilling yr, turning my life into a much better place.

At the start of the yr, i had to initiate some big change within my social circle. My results at the end of sem 1 yr 1 in 2008 was rather disappointing. I didnt get gd grades at all and i knew i didnt study well enough that time as most of my time was taken away from me somehow! And watching ur frens perform ard ya and u urself remaining in the shit hole really makes u look damn bad. That was what happened to me. I knew tt me stepping into the uni was a dream come true for my mother! She was so so proud of me that time. No words to describe that. But i realized i was traveling in a path that would not cos me any gd in my uni life. I wasnt doing my mum proud. And i was very demoralised tt i couldnt perform the way i actually could. Last min mugging never works in the uni! U have to be consistent all the way. I had to learn this the hard way. And thanks to veera for making a call to me right at the start of the yr and letting me know what my mistakes were and why i flopped! I did one gd thing then which was to take his advice. And i wanted to make sure that i turn everything over cos true fact is that there is no one that can help u if u cant help urself. With that being said, i actually stopped wasting time with a certain person. No matter how the truth is being denied, guess i made the right choice. And now when i look back, i am thouroughly satisfied that i took that decision then.

Sem 2 Yr 1 was a very challenging sem for me as i needed to get my GPA to a whole new level. If i were to flunk in sem 2, my end wasnt too far away. So i placed all my hopes on reviving my GPA with sem 2. Gladly, a few new names spurted out in my life at that pt of time and one of it was the most significant one! Somehow, i was motivated so much to do well by that figure and in the end, i did somehow well for that sem, pulling my GPA up as i wanted and getting me on a safer side. Thank You for coming into my life!

Following that, i did my special sem and the person who was a true motivation at that pt of time also did it with me. I really wanted to get my GPA one notch higher and had to score an A for marketting. Well i obtained exactly tt at the end of the special sem. That was the sign, showing me that i knew my way to score. As u can see, i dun have anything else besides the uni life to talk abt in the first sem cos thats how closely attached i was with my studies. Haha. No choice i had to suffer due to my poor performance in the first sem first yr!

Besides the uni life in the first half of the yr, i also learnt that the girl who i was once interested in got attached. Surprisingly i wasnt sad abt it cos i sort of got over all that in the later part of 2008. But i was a bit worried then knowing abt the choice she had made but now i think all is well hahaha! Was a gd choice i have to say. She was another person who has motivated me by being so responsible in life! Did learn the impt things in life from her. And now i am glad that we re gd frens.

I didnt have any love interest after that and i knew my priority was to do well in uni! So i stayed away from having any such thoughts with anyone at that pt of time. June was a very fulfilling holiday. Firstly, i took part in the camp kathiroli, purely to show my support for my fren. And glad i made her happy at the end of the camp. I was so on in the camp only due to one reason. If u volunteer to help, do it well. Dun be there for the sake of it! So yea, there iant much instances that u can see me being so enthu in something. And also, i asked dhivya to be my partner then as i knew i could click very well with her! And that proved to be a gd choice too. Camp kathiroli turned out to be one of the best camps that i have ever been to. Was a great affort and a lot of sweet memories.

In the month of June, me and my frens finally organised a overseas trip after yrs of talking abt it. It came true in June and we travlled to perth to visit our fren krish there and also to enjoy the sights of perth. Was a very relaxing and gd trip though we didnt engage ourselves in any activity there or wat. What can u expect in the winter period? I jus loved the friendliness of the ppl there. Was truely an unforgettable trip. Had a gd time.

The rest of that holidays was spent seeing all my close frens and preping up for the new sem, yr 2 of study! I totally transformed myself into a serious mugger for sem 1,year 2. I aimed a GPA of 4 for that sem itself, so that i can raise my cumulative to a much better position. And for that, i didnt go out on saturdays sundays and cancelled most of my outings. I guess i can count the number of times that i went out. Its like ard 5-6. Was a gd move i think. Never been so consistent with my work before.

Met another few frens in that sem. Junaidah was one of them. A very sweet person! Pls dun look down on me that i have so far only mentioned girls in my post. Haha! Its just that it is so much easier to click with the guys that i have made quite a number of them alomg the way. And given my character is hard to appreciate girls but i did appreciate these few personalities and that is why i m stating them here. Alex, a guy of cos, was another addition to my study grp. Guess it was a gd inclusion cos he really gave us the attitude to mug hard and do well. Thats the way i saw it at least.

After going thru hell that sem, i finally cleared all my exams. So question is whether i did as i wanted to for that sem! Whether all my effort, plus not going out, and shutting myself from all sources of distratctions served me well. Yes!!!!!!!!!!!! It definately did. Results came in a couple of days ago! And guess wat, i surpassed my expectations! I scored 4.11 for this sem alone. For all those hard work, finally it paid off. And once again, i had a few reasons to be motivated. Similar to sem 2 yr 1 that is haha! Thanks again for being a gd motivation. And also, my phuket trip. I was expecting a lot out of the trip. Didnt enjoy one whole sem and that was the time tt i can get everything out. So yea was a proud moment when i actually saw my grades. After a yr of struggling in sch, i have set my GPA to somewhere not so bad!

One huge reason of me doing well was partly due to the end of my family problems! There were so much of issues revolving between me, my dad and our house. Wasnt a place condusive to study then. But before the start of my sem 2, my sis brought out this plan which i saw as the only solution to my dad's problems. It was to shift in together into a new hse. And that too ended up being in pioneer, being so near to my hse. Initially, i was so paranoid and worried abt it. But now, i am very very happy that we made that decision. It brought me laughter, a gd place to study, a new form of luxury and no room for me to worry abt family issues. Thanks to my sis and my bro in law for being such great ppl, bringing such a change into the family!! I m glad that finally i see family members ard me, instead of the four walls that i was stuck in back in Yishun!

Phuket trip, one of the highlight of the yr i would say! Wad a trip! Gosh! Tremendous! I enjoyed it in every possibe way that i could have. Did fucking lots of stuff! A fantastic way to end off the yr. Was a gd way to relief myself off all the stress that i went thru. A few incidents did happen there. And somehow, it brought out a new change in me! I finally realised wat was in my subconscious mind! Hmmmm! Finally, something is happening to me! hahaha.

When i came back, it was time for x mas. Celebrated the eve in a very simple manner. With dev and anu at vivo and guest appearance by my one and only nephew! Was a simple yet nice outing. I got the time to talk to anu after a long long time. And going out like tt actually gets my mind off what is bothering me so much right now! I m jus not myself! Purely disturbed!

X mas, spent with my family! We went to jack's place! Finally had turkey for xmas. Was nice. Great dinner that was. Thanks to my sis and bro in law for that too. Besides all that, for the second half of the yr, i saw a few of my close frens getting attached! Especially those in my grp of frens in sch. One by one. Feel happy for them. And i have somehow developed this sense of loneliness. Hope it would go away soon. Finally got to meet rama too after one whole yr that he locked himself in his place to study for A levels. Glad that he has now completed it. Want him to come NTU. And i wish he did very well for his A levels. Would be nice to go sch with someone who was ur fren since primary 1. Hahaha!

As u can see, though not much have happened in yr 2009, it was still a rather gd yr. There were no big forms of sorrows that i can remember for the entire yr. That itself is a big thing. And i thank whoever up there, for bringing in some really nice ppl to my life for the yr. Will always cherish all these ppl throughout my life! And this is also a yr that i missed my mum lesser due to the nice and fantastic ppl ard me! I hardly thought of that incident which separated her from me. Thank you mum for a wonderful yr. And i always know tt though i cant see ya, u re still here with me, guiding me! Thank you and i love u lots!

As i look ahead into yr 2010, i can see that there is gonna be a huge change in my life. I will initiate it right at the start of the yr. Whether it turns out to be gd or bad i wun know! But it will be everything that i have pinned my hopes for, for now! Lets see how things go. Wish all the ppl ard me had an equally fulfilling year. Let's step into the new yr with much joy and happiness and make it yet another awesome yr to spend our lives in! Happy New yr Everyone! Love ya all!!!
Ganeshan | 6:11 PM