Well, never knew pioneer would be such a pleasant place to live in, at least for the time being. The house is very conducive for my studying tt i have been studying more than ever! The house is currently very quiet cos my 2nd sis and the children have not move in yet! So dunno how the noise level would be after they shift in. But guess my room is quite distant from the rest of them so still good! I get to do my work in peace, which was what i wanted! Traveling to school is like so easy. It is at most a 20min journey haha! I love the part where i dun have to travel all the way to yishun. Also there re plenty of shops nearby, even jurong point is like a km away. So yea, not bad at all!
Anyway, my dad hasn't been coming home tt often. He is saying this place is too far for him and he feels annoyed coming back home. And i think he is staying at his friend's place. Now the thing is tt it was cos of my dear dad tt i agreed to stay in together with everyone, so tt his life would be so much easier at this old age. And on top of tt, he was the one who asked my sis to shift in together it seems. And after all this effort jus for him, this is wat he can give back! I seriously dunno wat has happened to him. Totally out of his mind and he hasnt been the same since start of the year. Has been acting very weird. Feel a bit neglected cos he cant even come home to see his son. I have been asking everytime on where he is and have been worried most of the time on why he hasnt come back home. But he thinks i just want him back home for the pocket money! I seriously dunno wat to say! Feel upset tt after my mum, there is no one as pure who would be concerned or bother abt me. Not tt i want the attention but at least my dad could be jus physically there for me. Nevermind, have been lonely all this while since feb 11 2008. So i seriously dun think i should expect for a miracle to occur!
Been quite focused in my work finally. Have been distracted by one or two things till now but now i am getting a control of my emotions and stuff. One of the stuff is what i have already mentioned in the previous para. The other is just a feeling of being cheated by someone who i think i have been close to. I feel that i have been back stabbed, though i have no evidence to prove. Thought someone who i was close wouldn't bitch abt me behind my back. But guess some do it to get closer to other friends. Hmmm nvm. Guess I'll just be silent about this and won't over react or what. Since i consider the person as my friend, i shall just forgive. But i think i won't forget. Hope whoever it is understands tt i am just being kind to them and have no intentions of harming them. So why harm me? In fact i am still being the same nice Garnie to them after all these, pretending not to know what they have done behind my back! Once i feel someone is a close friend of mine and if i value them so much, i would just to anything for them! This has been the case all this while and i just can't change tt. So pls dun hurt me till it causes me to stop this trend.
NTU's MAE has gone mad i guess! They have been changing the system overnight, just like tt, without informing us before hand. Fri nite when i checked for my modules in edventure for tutorials and stuff, i saw that two of my courses went missing. When i went to my ntu mail to check wat's happening, they have sent a mail to the MAE students tt all our 4au modules have been changed to 3au, but the contents will remian the same and so does the number of lessons. Also, we have to do one 3au module in our 4th year as the total number of AUs tt we re suppose to achieve is still the same. Haiz. Yet another change. As if bringing in EID into normal sem, changing tutorial classes into lects and adding two more hours of teaching to each lesson wasnt enough! Re they really trying their best to make sure we dun graduate? hahaha. I don't know but guess i have to face the music. Tt reminds me of some ppl who dun even know wat the fuck is going on despite coming to sch and all these ppl are Fucking dependent at the age of 22-23. Haiz. Seriously, these ppl make me feel sick. Dunno how ppl can be sooooooo slack! Well though its none of my business, feel tt some ppl re just wasting the spots offered to them by NTU. Give it to someone who knows the value of it laa! Haiz. Assholes!
Anyway, have stated what ever my heart told me to this time. Didnt really use my brains to think what the outcome would be if my friend ever reads my blog, which i doubt so, and whether they would know its them! Well even if they realise, all i can say is sorry cos i am someone who blogs abt things tt stays close to my heart! So if ur issue ever comes out here, tt should show how much of importance i am giving to you! Sighsssssss! Well enough said. Before i end off, just like to say tt laughter is seriously the best medicine. So even if u re feeling down, go to those ppl who u know would definately make u laugh or smile. Tt would make u forget ur problems. I am telling this through experience. Thanks to shalu who brought tt smile to me past week when i was pretty worried over something. And thanks to my clique in school who some how makes me hyper and aid me to forget whatever trouble tt is going on in my life and help me stay light hearted! And also thanks to those friends who at least bothered to find out how my new house/place is treating me! Shows tt these re friends who really care on even the smallest things tt happens in my life! So if u know u did ask, u re just being appreciated by Garnie/Teggie(or watever u know me as hahaha)! One last thing, Please listen to hasilae fisilae and vaarayo songs from the new suriya movie, aadhavan! I am crazily addicted to these songs. Damn nice! Adiyos!!!!
Ganeshan | 7:59 PM