Hey ppl, quite happy with some things in life as for now. I think i have frens who really bother and do care abt watever tt is happening! Thanks joel for coming forward to help though i never expected tt. And thanks to shameni for actually msging me on the 11th. Very nice of ya.

Guess its jus useless abt crying and whining on how my life has turned out to be. Instead, i should jus live it as it is. Take watever tt comes my way and learn how to cope with it. My internet connection was cut recently but i jus got it back with my own savings. I was just tellin my fren tt i have jus started saving after a long time and i told him i'll make sure it hits 1000 mark soon. But had to draw whtever tt was out to pay for the tv and internet. Nvm abt tt, lets see how long i can sustain with this crap!

Vday i chose to stay at home and didnt wanna go anywhere in the form of celebration. Think vday wun work for me. Its jus some other ordinary day in my calender. I think valentine's day should be celebrated with someone whom u truely love! Some might jus wanna cherish their friendship and go out on this day. Well guess tts a gd thing but it doesnt serve the purpose of a vday. A valentine is suppose to be some kind of a person u love, not like!!! Its cos of these two words tt ppl cant distinguish, problems arises. If u ever want to celebrate a day to cherish ur frens, tts wat friendship day is for!!! Nothing wrong to go out with frens on v day but dun make it such tt u have to celebrate vday with them instead jus go out jus like its any other normal day!!!

I would like to talk abt this vday incident tt strike my thoughts yesterday. I was in j2 then! Well, jc was so fun in the sense tt i get to collect lots of vday gifts and also i took the trouble to actually buy for ppl too. Never had this kinda exchange before jc cos i was in boys' sch for like the previous ten yrs then! Hahaha. so this kinda present exchange thingy was really very new for me. Not exactly an exchange cos ppl who gave me didnt really expect anything back so i felt the gifts were truely genuine. With tt i gotta talk abt the most memorable one tt i recieved. Tt day i was jus giving out the roses tt i bought for a few gals in sch. Suddenly, my friend angie tan gave me a real rose with a special card! Well, it was not by her but she was suppose to be the 10th person to recieve it and pass it to me! I was quite surprised tt someone actually took the trouble to plan it in such a way. Seriously, i didnt have a clue on who it was. I really appreciated the gift a lot and wanted to thank whoever who gave me it to me, in person! But till now, though i have a rough idea of who it is, i cant confirm tt she is the one. The card actually said tt i was the person's hero and be it singing or running i was always her superstar! Wat a complement and i was truely amazed by it. Still have the card with me!!! As for the person i think who gave me it, i truely didnt know tt at that time she was in a way interested in me. I never knew honestly! Its only after she left and like 6mths to one yr later, i ever knew abt it. We were not even proper frens in the first place so guess she mistook me of avoiding her when i actually behaved the normal way i was. But yea its quite funny to think abt those memories now. Its glad to know tt that gal has moved on in a way and is now happy wih her bf and all haha! Cool!

Last yr's v day was never a memorable day at all. Firstly, it was jus 3days after tt incident. Plus i was in my dampest moods of all. However, i still wished whomever i wanted to on tt day after giving a long thought abt it. There was only one as a matter of fact. I was really very down cos i was suppose to get a gift on the nite of the 11th feb for tt person and pass it to her for v day,sometime later! But, i never expected 11th feb nite to turn out in such a way tt i cant forget tt day ever in my life! So whenever its vday, i think this thoughts will come haunting me!

I have no interest for anyone at all and this is something very new abt me. Cos i rmb having a thought abt at least someone when i was in jc, throughout my army days and even last yr till sch started or wat. After entering uni, my love interest fell to an absolute zero haha! Dunno if its the work load tt i am occupied with or my own family situation tt is keeping me away from such interest. But tts the fact. Furthermore, i think i wouldnt want anyone who is not as gd as the last person whom i ever liked. It seems tt its quite hard for a gal to be better than tt,however i shall jus wait and see if anyone ever will be! But yea though there mite be some gal who might be like tt in the future, the chances tt she will like me back is very low i think. So yea i dunno how this is gonna end!

Thanks for the few who actually wished me for vday! Sorry for not replying back. Haha! Kindaf tells u tt i m a affected person deep within but jus dun wanna show it! On a lighter note, i actually won a vday luckydraw prize in ntu. Dunno wat kinda prize it is but yea, its the only gift i have gotten for this vday!!! Hahaha
Ganeshan | 6:54 PM