Match past sunday was exactly like how singapore vs vietnam one was. We had like 20 chances but couldnt convert in any. Krishna according to me played the best. He jus outran the fellows marking him and took so many shots that were mostly on target. But yea none went in. I took one tt i tot confirm was going in. Went with lots of force but damn, it hit the top post and when out instead. Jus a bit lower, it would have been a goal. We played well but somehow, nothing could be done. And the opponents had like 5 chances and they converted in 4. So yea, dunno wat was goin on. But yea been a long time since we gathered as a team again and played so we expected to lose. If only this was ard june tt time, we would have definately won.

Went for cycling with Anu, Suraen, Suresh, Sachdev, Murali, Kurseth and Rama on Monday. We left from ecp all the way till changi village. Ate at changi village and came back. Played at the playground, climbed the tree branch and played dog and bone in between. Was fun. Never did a cycling outing at this area with these guys so yea was something new. Played tf2 with they guys and went shopping with Rama to queensway the next couple of days. Have been out everyday lately. So decided i should be at home today during xmas. They showed a lot of nice programmes so was watching those. Good way to save money. Nothing much planned for the days ahead besides match this sunday at bedok north at 3pm. Hopefully we perform better this time ard.

Well, school is gonna start in abt 1 and a half weeks from now. I feel damn slack. Dunno if i will get back tt momentum again. Hopefully doesnt take too long. Been quite some time since i talked to my dad. Though i feel very hurt abt it, at the same time, i feel so angry with him. Dunno why he must do these kinda things. Very irritated to actually realize tt my dad did all these without thinking wat the outcome will be and how it will affect the ppl dependent on him, which is me! Very selfish indeed. No wonder my sisters are all as stubborn and selfish as him.

I dunno why, but if i had a family with nice siblings ard, i would really treasure every single moment with them. Looking ard me, i feel many ppl dun realize how important their family are to them. Though they have nice siblings and parents, they dunno how to appreciate. I dunno if its cos they re gals, cos not all gals re like tt. But mostly its these gals who dun appreciate their family members. Anyway, my niece's birthday is coming up, like tmr, but i dunno how to wish her cos my sis dun wanna talk or answer our calls. I miss the kids. Only ppl in my family now tt can bring me back tt laughter.

Guess i have become very used to the loneliness. Maybe, more matured in a lot of ways. I dun waste my time thinking abt unecessary stuff, instead i get on with things tt matters the most. Sort of know wat i exactly want and handle problems with more ease. Hopefully it gets better. Going out regularly and maybe schooling will help forget all the worries. It has so far. I never believed in tellin someone abt my worries and i didnt enjoy doing so when i did. Now i feel so much relaxed and i never remind myself of somethings, tt is not gd to remember, by not sharing them with others. Sort of enjoy this loneliness and private circle tt i have ard myself. I dunno wat else to talk abt for now cos my mind is very empty with nothing great happening in life now. Very dull infact! Should be posting one more entry before the yr comes to an end. Adiyos!!!
Ganeshan | 3:56 AM