Hey! This week was the first week of School at NTU for me!!! Well, it has been nearly three yrs since i last studied or did anything to do with school. Well, it was like November 2005!!! School started off well. Like i didnt have to go tt early and my fren actually fetched me from home and sent me there. So nice of the twin sisters for doing such a wonderful deed on first day of school. Hahahaha!!! The local indians at NTU are mostly the ppl that i know. So we have our own group to hang out with. The seniors are of real help here cos we, the newbies, re really quite blur in travelling ard the school, getting lect notes and going to the ryte places. But yea, with them, its a hell lot easier. They even showed us to the printers, lend their credits for printing and explain to us abt the courses. So thanks to them all!!!
I am quite stunned at the pace which the lecturer is going at, especially for maths. Seriously, he is doing it as if the guys didnt go for any national service in between like tt. He expects us to like remember everything. The only way i can recall all these is by going home and looking thru all the formulas again and again. And at the end of the day, all these qns tt i am struggling now re the ones that were the easiest when we were doing O levels. Definately, its hard for someone who havent touched any studying material in ages to UNDERSTAND ALL THIS! Hopefully, i dun take much time to recall every damn thing back.
I actually thought i have lost the thought of the person out of my mind. But now, it seems funny when i turn happy when i see them. Whatever they do, captures my attention. I dunno wat this means. Made me feel happy though. A very gd feeling. But guess i shouldnt bring this happiness to some dream or wat. I dun expect anything out of it. If i ever think of going beyond tt, i think i am jus finding a way to hurt myself. So yea, be happy with wat i feel, see and go through for that period of time. Other than tt, i shouldnt be thinking tt wat is very unlikely to happen, will actually happen!!! Haiz. I have really given up on it, cos it will lead me to nowhere!!!
Haiz. Went for a birthday party during the weekend. Well, the party was gd for sure. Jus tt, i get reminded of lots of stuff again and again. Also, i start to envy those who actually could celebrate their b dae with everyone, especially the most impt ones, ard. I didnt get this oppurtunity at all. She left me one month before my b dae! Everytime when the b dae person's mum holds on to the mic and say abt their son or daughter, i jus feel like crying. I'll jus imagine wat she'll say if she was ard. She forced me to celebrate and i actually told her i dun want to celebrate though i was later on having a small thought abt it. I even readied a guest list without anyone knowing. All this had to happen. I m not as lucky as many ppl. I dunno if i deserve this in my life, or if i m really not tt nice a person tt all this is happening to me, but i surely no that no matter how much i regret, she'll never come back! Hmmmm....
Ganeshan | 7:46 AM