I havent been doing anything much for the past two weeks besides going to school and coming back home which takes up most of the time. I have to study extra hard so tt i can keep up to the pace. Two yrs of NS has really made me dumb. So in order to get back to where i was, have to put in the extra bit of effort now. Anyway, there re only some days from the last two weeks tt i remember clearly. Last Thur, was Sharadha's birthday. We wanted to celebrate her birthday among ourselves before her actual birthday party. So met up at vivo tt day. I was terribly tired cos after mt sch ended, i went all the way to braddel for my driving. After driving, i went back to jurong east to meet up with the rest who were going to vivo from NTU. And yea, afterwhich we all made our way to Vivo. Ate at olive and whatever u call it. Cant remember hahaha! But my food was nice. I ordered a fantastic meal. Was damn funny cos Veera had to wait for nearly an hr for his food and tt fellow cant resist his hunger. Of all ppl him hahaha. The rest of the day was quite fun with all of sharadha's frens there. Even though i was tired couldnt feel it. So yea had a gd day!

Fri, Shanthini and i went to shop for sharadha's birthday. We were trying to get her things which would be useful for her when she is at scotland. We bought ard 6-7 stuffs. We started at bugis and after tt went to vivo! Hema and Shalini joined in after some time. They brought me to mango and were looking ard for something. tts when i got reminded of my mum again. Hmmmz. The last time i brought her shopping was to vivo. She was really excited as tt was her first time there. And i was asking her to try every this and that. I passed by most of the shops tt i went with her. Tt day i cant forget cos my mum told me tts one of her happiest days in her life. I promised her i would bring her there one more time and bring her to marche to eat. Well, i couldnt keep to my promise this time. Haiz! So yea, i was quite sad and quiet for some time and didnt wanna let my frens know why. But eventually, at night when shanthu called me, i told her everything. I havent told anyone abt how i feel ever since a person stopped me from crying out and wasnt prepared to hear me. I assumed if tt person was like tt, no one would be willing to hear me out. But yea i was wrong. I was sharing all my memories tt i shared with my mum to Shanthini. She actually said something which made me tear cos i told her my mum always listens to me and i told her tt she would come back when she asked me whether she would during her last few minutes. And i tot she didnt listen this time. But my mum never fails to come in my dream and we live life very happily down there. I get to hug her and play with her like i used to. And from what i know, she only comes back in my dream. And this is where shanthu said its cause she listened to me and tts why she comes back during my dreams. Sometimes, i jus wish i could live in my dreams cos its so nice there. And yea i was touched by more things tt she explained to me. Really a big thank you for tt. Cos i didnt mention tt day itself cos i really cant say thank you to anyone's face or in tt instant itself. Dunno why but i m jus like tt. Nvm i dun wanna get emo and all here.

Saturday was Sharadha's birthday party. It was by the pool side so was something different. We went to club celebrity after tt. Was very fun! I was dancing the whole day. Quite nice. I enjoyed myself after a long time in club. Maybe after yatra, i am going there agin, but this time with my own sfc ppl. Was nothing great this week. Was studying again for the entire week until Wed. Wed went out with Sahardha, shalini, shanthini and raja. We ate at jalan kayu.

I havent been spending time with the sfc guys ever since school started. Hopefully i find time. Looking forward to yatra. at least got something planned. anyway, i got nothing much to say already. c ya'll soon!
Ganeshan | 9:33 PM

Hey! This week was the first week of School at NTU for me!!! Well, it has been nearly three yrs since i last studied or did anything to do with school. Well, it was like November 2005!!! School started off well. Like i didnt have to go tt early and my fren actually fetched me from home and sent me there. So nice of the twin sisters for doing such a wonderful deed on first day of school. Hahahaha!!! The local indians at NTU are mostly the ppl that i know. So we have our own group to hang out with. The seniors are of real help here cos we, the newbies, re really quite blur in travelling ard the school, getting lect notes and going to the ryte places. But yea, with them, its a hell lot easier. They even showed us to the printers, lend their credits for printing and explain to us abt the courses. So thanks to them all!!!



I am quite stunned at the pace which the lecturer is going at, especially for maths. Seriously, he is doing it as if the guys didnt go for any national service in between like tt. He expects us to like remember everything. The only way i can recall all these is by going home and looking thru all the formulas again and again. And at the end of the day, all these qns tt i am struggling now re the ones that were the easiest when we were doing O levels. Definately, its hard for someone who havent touched any studying material in ages to UNDERSTAND ALL THIS! Hopefully, i dun take much time to recall every damn thing back.




I actually thought i have lost the thought of the person out of my mind. But now, it seems funny when i turn happy when i see them. Whatever they do, captures my attention. I dunno wat this means. Made me feel happy though. A very gd feeling. But guess i shouldnt bring this happiness to some dream or wat. I dun expect anything out of it. If i ever think of going beyond tt, i think i am jus finding a way to hurt myself. So yea, be happy with wat i feel, see and go through for that period of time. Other than tt, i shouldnt be thinking tt wat is very unlikely to happen, will actually happen!!! Haiz. I have really given up on it, cos it will lead me to nowhere!!!


Haiz. Went for a birthday party during the weekend. Well, the party was gd for sure. Jus tt, i get reminded of lots of stuff again and again. Also, i start to envy those who actually could celebrate their b dae with everyone, especially the most impt ones, ard. I didnt get this oppurtunity at all. She left me one month before my b dae! Everytime when the b dae person's mum holds on to the mic and say abt their son or daughter, i jus feel like crying. I'll jus imagine wat she'll say if she was ard. She forced me to celebrate and i actually told her i dun want to celebrate though i was later on having a small thought abt it. I even readied a guest list without anyone knowing. All this had to happen. I m not as lucky as many ppl. I dunno if i deserve this in my life, or if i m really not tt nice a person tt all this is happening to me, but i surely no that no matter how much i regret, she'll never come back! Hmmmm....
Ganeshan | 7:46 AM

Hey i am finally blogging after nearly 2 weeks. Didnt have the time to blog at all. Anyway, now for the updates! For the past two weeks, i was basically trying to get ready all the stuff for my uni, worked with sachdev as a mystery shopper, played soccer in the weekend, got into a problem with the mind's cafe ppl in the weekend, went for NTU freshman orientation, recieved and planned my timetable for uni and to end it off, did FTT today.

This was all that happened the last two weeks, tt i didnt update cos i was out most of the time, doing all these. Was a freaking tiring period!!! Well last wed and thurs i was very involved in the mystery shopper assignment. What we had to do was to go to all the challengers around singapore and act as if we were customers. We had to make sure the saleperson promoted abt the starshield warranty whenever we asked abt their product tt was above 300dollars. It was damn funny as for the first time in my life, i picked the most expensive electronics tt were sold at challenger outlets and was acting as if i was really gonna buy it. Have to say both our acting was quite gd that the salesperson didnt have any clue abt who the hell we were. But yea the job was so tiring cos of the traveling part. The challenger outlets were all spreaded across Singapore and we had to travel huge distances to reach another outlet. And tackling three diff salesperson for each outlet for three diff items and also checking out on their names without them knowing it was very challenging. I and sachdev actually shared the salary as it was actually a one person's job. But yea nvm, its a new experience.

Saturday i actually went to minds' cafe and got into a problem with the ppl there. Cos my fren actually booked a table for 8 at 6pm. And he did clarify with the ppl whether the reservation will be cancelled if we dun come in time. They actually told us that it wun be cancelled and it doesnt matter when we came cos, as long as its reserved, its ours. But guess wat, when we went there, we didnt have a table for us. We waited for some time until we got a table for only four. We had six then. We kept waiting and couldnt get any other table. So i was freaking pissed. When i confronted the counter, he actually threw the blame at me sayin that i came late and thats why we didnt have table. Firstly, that piece of crap didnt call us when we didnt turn up on time. Secondly, he gave me a stupid reason tt we would only get a table as wat we reserved for if all our 8 frens turn up. Wats the use of a reservation then. And if that was the case, he actually gave two ppl, a table of six when their frens were not there yet. I dunno wat he was thinking. Well, maybe he jus dun want my colour ppl to get any table there. I could sense the unfair treatment there. And he actually said we could leave if we didnt like the place. And when i demanded for his manager or boss, he actually said that he runs the outlet. I was jus shell shocked. He kept giving that stupid smile whenever i argued with him that i got so sick of, till i actually left the place without harming him. Its the outlet at Dhoby Ghaut by the way. Fucked up service. Anyway, we went to the one at bugis after tt. Which was the total opposite in terms of service. We should have jus gone there first. Haiz. Nvm had a great time at the bugis one though. Was damn fun and hilarious.

Soccer was at Anderson sec on Sunday! WE played against a group tt was full of 30yr old ppl. They even had a grandfather. I played as a right wing this time and kept running throughout the entire match. I did my part for the first half by creating chances. My second half was weak, i would say. My team did play better for second half though. But we didnt capitalise on the first half when we got the lead. We were jus lacking something tt day which i dunno wat. Cos it was really a game tt we should have won. But we didnt. First half was 2-2. Second half the opponents scored one more and won us. I was pretty discontented cos we deserved to have won the game. Nvm shall prep for next match and do better.

I finally got to see my timetable for uni this week. It is actually quite slack. Jus tt my monday is quite packed. And i actually want to drop my econs. But at the rate the other electives re being taken up and not having any more vacancies, i think i would rather stay with something tt i know. But guess wat, i am not happy with the 8.30 lectures in the mornings. Seriously, its a pain in the ass. So fucking far and i have to wake up exactly 2 and a half hrs to be on time for the lectures. Which means i have to wake up at 6am. Oh nooooooo! I cant wait to get my driving license. Seriously. It would cut down my travelling time and increase my sleeping time by lots. But yea, for a few more months, i have to manage with these i guess. So sian. That day, on wednesday, i actually went to the Freshman orientation. I was damn depressed to find out that i was the minority of the minorities. Seriously. Firstly, i am an indian which makes me a minority. Secondly, there re more foreigners and foreign indians then locals in my faculty which makes me minority of minorities. No offence to the other races. But yea i feel sad that the local indians are smaller in proportion when compared to the foreigners. Haiz sad sad!!! Hopefully, i could build up my own big grp of frens in NTU, Lucky i know ard 7-8 ppl in the same faculty. Now jus need to add on to it. I think i know more seniors than my own batch haha.

Well guess wat, i passed my FTT which was today, which brings me one step closer to the actual license. Jus tt, my instructor told me to change my membership to the CDC after i renewed my membership at SSDC for another 6mths. I jus wasted 6 dollars for nothing. Haiz. But heard the passing rates at CDC is much better than SSDC and so, its better that i listen to him as he is registered only there. So yea, tmr, i gonna book for TP. Soon, i can drive my vehicle that my dad have given me. Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Hmmm, life is changing big time for me now. Its a new phase of my life now. I cant wait to go Uni and start studying again and keep myself busy. Finally the time has come. I am more eager to go sch after looking at the time tables and modules. Guess uni would be a pleasant experience. Rite now i have nothing else in mind besides that and i feel so free and clear on wat i am going to do. Hopefully it stays this way.
Ganeshan | 7:48 AM