Ok where should i start. Let me talk abt the movie outings i have had for the second half of the week. I watched deception and hancock on the same day. This is the second time tt i have watched two movies in theatres in one day. Deception, i found it fucked up! Not so impressive. I was irritated with the script and the story telling. And when i watched hancock, i dunno why, but i enjoyed the movie so much. I had a gd laugh for a number of scenes. But its not so great. Jus tt it was better than that stupid deception movie. So yea, watchable!

Now abt my soccer this afternoon. Finally, we managed to play against FitnessFirst FC after the cancellation of the match that we suppose to have with them two weeks ago due to the rain. I was damn pissed for a number of reasons. The FitnessFirst FC never come on time. It was us who booked the field so we had to pay for it. FitnessFirst used their own player to be the ref. So yea, the needn't pay for anything. So they simply didnt care abt the time wastage. Cos the field could only be used by us for like 2hrs. And tts not it. The ref go pump our ball which was alrite. Guess wat happened? The pin broke and we couldnt pump the ball already. the air tt was previously inside the ball was all taken out. So we couldnt use it. And the ball that they brought was not any better. Then the ref took both the balls to some bicycle pump shop to pump. It was 3.45 by the time our match properly started. Wa lao!!! My mood was simply spoilt. And today, we had like 20 over players. jus for our team. And we follow the idea of letting everyone play. So yea had to make lots of rolling subs.

As for the game itself, FitnessFirst were not as strong as i expected. I tot too highly abt them. But in the end, they were getting shagged very easily. Their players also not say very big. They were ok. Our midfield was pretty bad in the sense tt there were no one in the midfield to create the plays. Especially second half. Tt was pretty bad. But yea, we won 2-1. The one tt we let in was somehow tyco and went in cos we were damn messy. But its alright. Didnt really like the way we played cos something was jus missing. Next week trying to arrange for match but i dunno whether we will be able to. Time is running short.

Ok now for the emo part. One of my frens, Sara, has been admitted in the hospital for some minor jaw surgery. I am not sad abt it. Tts not it if u tot tt was it. Cos he chose to go for the operation for his braces! So if i was so worried abt it, its dumb. Well, its all abt the hospital tt he was admitted in. it was the Singapore General Hospital. On thur when Sara had to go to a temp ward, they actually gave him a ward at block 4, level 7. My mum was admitted in block 4, level 4. The bads, the place, the arrangements, the equipments, the atmosphere all reminded me of everything that happened that day, which i would never be able to forget. I got reminded of every single damn thing so easily. I could actully see my mum being admitted to the hospital, she talking to me from her bed, she eating when i was feeding her, she hugging me and behaving like a baby now and then. Hmmmm. And especially the last day when she was like in her own world. Looking so scared. Dunno wat she was staring at. But she was still moving. All jus came to my mind and kept flashing. Hmmm. And the pt where the doctor walked out to me, she lying there motionless and me crying my lungs out near the lift, ard the bed and the corridor. Haiz. The same thing happened when i visited Sara on Sat. I couldnt show my emo side cos all my frens were there. But if anyone tot i was exceptionally quiet, that was the reason. Hmmm. I dunno sia. Its something tt is making me tear from time to time. even today morning had to start out tt way. Yesterday nite again. Hmmm. I watched one movie and the mum will tell her son, u should hold my hand and walk and bring me places even when u get older. Reminded me of so many things. I never fail to hold my mum's hands when we cross road and when we take the steps. I was always concerned that she would fall or would get lost. The feeling of me holding her hands still could be felt. Even at the funeral, i was reminded of myself holding her hand everywhere i go. Jus tt the last time, her hand was so cold and she was lying like a stone. tears have been rolling from my eyes since tt day. They could never dry off and i m still tearing till this day. Only ppl who have lost their mum would know the meaning of that relationship. Its jus more than anything!!!
Ganeshan | 6:30 AM