There re so many things that have been going on in my mind. I was thinking thru if i should actually carry on with what i intend to do in June! Seriously, got this feeling that something is really lacking. Well, its not me! As i said my hopes re not high but yet I keep thinking abt it. And most probably, the entire thing is gonna end with me being avoided fully! Hmmm i cant fault anyone too cos everyone has got the right to behave how they want. Might appear as being selfish and unfair but yea we cant force anyone in this! If they like u get accepted. If they dun, u mite get avoided. Its not a matter of being confident or not, cos the final decision wun be mine and i have no power to alter it. And also its not a matter of being nice cos no judgement would be made jus based on how nice the person is. Furthermore, i m keep saying June but will it even happen in June? Why? Of cos i m able to make it almost any day but that is totally redundant. It has always been very difficult to ermmm! Nvm jus hope for it to happen eh!

Well, nothing much has happened in this week. Monday stayed home. tue suppose to go out but kaenna cancelled and i was irritated. Wed went to NTU for medical. Seriously, the campus is filled with foreigners sia. I feel much better when i go to NUS. But somehow the damn sch aint replying me yet! Medical was damn fast. Quite happy that the lady who took my weight height and something else said i am very healthy and have a very acceptable weight. the machine showed my weight as 65.8kg! N my height, somehow decreased by a cm according to the machine. But, thats false cos my frens also decreased by one. So guess i jus plus back the one again. Hahaha. Lucky had Thangga Ravi and Rajaram for the medical. If not would have been damn boring. After that suppose to meet up with Sam at Boon Lay again. I actually went back home from NTU, slept for awhile and got ready to leave. As i was leaving, Sam msged saying she cant make it! I was quite stunned cos never had it been so last min before that someone cancelled an outing. The shortest time someone took was like one day before and i actually have to say abt that incident.. I was expecting very much for that particular outing for like weeks and one day before the day, that someone had to just cancel it. So wat Sam did reminded me of that incident. But yea, minutes after i left the hse, i got the msg that she cant make it! I tot she was joking but sadly, she didnt. Haha. Yea was quite pissed. Who would not be ryte? But, yea i postponed the meeting of my SFC ppl at 7pm to 10pm so that i could meet Sam. How nice of me ryte hahaha! But yea, since Sam could not make it due to some unforseen circumstances, i decided to proceed to Dhouby instead, to meet up with the guys. So yea, since i could carry out an alternative plan i wasnt pissed for long. Only for the few seconds i was but yea she appeared to be very worried that she pang sei me two times in a row hahahaha, but yea its ok Sam! Some other time u want it then!

At Dhouby, met SFC ppl. Well not exactly SFC cos a lot of them back out last min leaving only me Dhinesh Pasu Pravin and Ruben to go! But yea we still went O bar. Went there before 8 to get free entry. Saw Priscilla and Sangeetha there. All Oosi for them cos O bar mah! We guys bought Carlsberg once we entered. Even before dinner i had to drink. But yea i did. Got the free chop and went out for dinner. Had minced mee pok noodle. Not so bad. After that crapped for damn long before we finally went in. Pasu had like 3 of his chinese frens who also went O bar. So we decided to combine with them to open two bottles of Jim Beam. Well, its always nice to share with Chinese guys when drinking cos they hardly drink has much as the Indians hahaha. So in a way i benefit a lot. What exactly happened was this. After we opened the bottle, we had a tremendous sofa seat. All the guys took the first glass and all of them disappeared ryte after tt. Leaving behind me and ruben. So yea, i took advantage of that and started drinking more. Later Pasu and Dhinsu came back and we were drinking more and more and finished up the first bottle. Still the rest of the guys didnt come. Then same thing happened for the second bottle. Hahahaha. I kept drinking. Never dance all. But was still rock steady. Later Prasad came n he opened up 2bottles himself. Well the Chinese guys finally came back and they told us they met thier frens outside and drank lots of beer. Which was gd news cos tt means all the bottles belongs to us now. Then yea drank finish the 3rd bottle too. Well, and 4th bottle, me Pasu and PraSAD WERE TRYING TO FINISH. Well, i think i exceeded 20glasses. I dunno how many after twenty i drank. Was getting high a bit. Then things started to become messy. Pasu gave me one last glass after i decided to stop cos i knew one more i might puke. Cos already i exceeded 20 damn glasses. So yea, i forced it in, n thats the moment i felt uneasy. The club closed at 3 and all of us left. Sangeetha and Pris also left tt time. I shared cab with Dhinesh and Pravin and in the cab, i was seriously feeling giddy and all cos of the motion. Then dinesh asked me a qn, i couldnt answer in words. Instead i jus puked out everything. In the god damn cab itself. Hahahaha!

Hmmm story hasnt ended. The cab driver was so damn pissed. We stopped at the Ang Mo Kio esso mobil. Dhinesh and Pravin were so nice that they said they'll clean up the mess. And they did. But fuck, the Malay taxi driver started saying lots of bullshit. Say his son all not like tt. Chee bai. We were cleaning and being nice instead of jus running away. Yet he kept talkin lots of shit. Decided to pay him the taxi fare and take another cab home. I was quite gone. After vomitting coulnt even stand straight. I was thinking wtf was gonna happen when i go home. Cos the last time i got caught by my dad. That was 14-15glasses and i was steady. Now i was not. Damn. Pravin sent me back first. I managed to open the gate and the door without much noise. Yea. Somehow kept my shoes quietly, washed my feeta nd face, changed to my home attire and throw the clubbing clothes into the washing machine. No one woke up as i did all this. Then went to my room and i was like totally like a jelly like that. Cannot stand up. Jus fell on my bed helplessly. N jus minutes kater realised i badly need to shit. So rushed to the toilet and yea came out of the toilet. Guess wat? Wrong. Still no one woke up and no one caught me! Hahaha. Headed back to my room and slept all the way till 11.45am. Damn. When i woke up, felt fucking terrible. Never had such a bad hangover before. Seriously this is the worst. Drank milo and puked out everything. Drank plain water that one also came out. Haiz. Then bathe n went to my room to sleep. Cant sleep for nuts even though my head was spinning. hmmmm. Then waited till 2.30pm. Could feel my stomach was damn empty but when u re suffering from a hangover, its never easy to eat. so i decided to eat noodles instead of the crab curry that my maid did. Somehow finished up and now feeling much better.

Story still hasnt end yet. I switched on my phone which i off yesterday. One voice msg came. And checked who it was. To my surprise, it was my dad and he didnt know he was talking. But yea he called intentionally. But guess he did not bother after the music started playing when he rang me. Well this is what he exactly said," The last time he went to some other place instead of heading home as he was drunk. Hmmmm" Then my maid was like saying someting in malay as a reply. Guess he knows i am out drinking. But yea, now after i showed signs that i have no appetite to eat rice and all, the maid should have somehow predicted. But i'll still pretend as if nothing happened hahaha. I made one decision after today. Seriously the hangover is so bad tt i want to make this decision. Not to stop drinking of cos. But to drink no more than 4glasses. I seriously wanna stick to this cos i hate getting wasted like tt. Sucks man even though at that moment when u re wasted u feel damn shiok. But the after effects fucking bad. So yea. One gd thing is that no matter how much i drank, i still had concious and i never smoked at all. Kept to my policy of no smoking. Thats very impressive. Yea.

Hmmm tt was my awesome O bar story! Today i decided to heal entirely at home. This weekend have like two b dae parties. Hmmm. So not bad jus tt i'll miss SFC trg. Nvm. And as for May 30th, me dhinesh prakash sara ruben and sachdev have decided to go for the aristal show organised by njc at nus. Jus heard the nj juniors are stingy abt the tix cos of the high demand. Hmmm. Hopefully they dun spoil the fun! I dont want this to get cancelled too!
Ganeshan | 1:34 AM