Sunday March 23, 2008


The past week in school was quite cool. As in when i went back on monday, i realised that i was no longer teaching tamil which i had problems teaching and the school actually gave me the responsibility to take over the maths HOD of the sch. So now i m a maths teacher who teaches P5 classes. But yea tt doesnt mean tt i only teach p5 but i also do teach other classes when their teachers take mc and all. So yea. Since maths is a subject tt i love, i find sch quite interesting now especially with the p5 kids who re more matured than the other levels in the afternoon. Best part is now i've got the hod's office and yea can use internet and all when free. Not bad not bad!

ohh on thur went out with my army buddies! Well, i was being a bastaRD at first. In the morning jia yin called and i told him tt i'd be free only in the evening so if anything maybe evening i can make it. Then he went on to organise something in the evening. When he called me at abt 7, the time when i jus ended sch and was freakin tired, i told him i aint gonna come. And i told him i felt like goin home. He then said all of them left their hse and re meetin soon. Then i jus told him i will call him if i come. After he put down the phone i felt real bad. So i decided to go. since they took the trouble and wanted to treat me and all. So nice of them eh. Well lucky that i went cos it was really great seeing them. Really enjoyed it cos i was seriously tired before that and after seeing them i felt much better. Had a sudden boost in my energy level and all. Haha. But yea was cool u know cos they bought some bag for joel at first and then treated me at terra's cafe and had a small cup-cake cutting. Real cool. And the food was not tt bad. Free wat!!!! hahaha. Always enjoy whenever i meet these guys and serena!!! Thanks guys and i really appreciate it!

Fri went for Raja's panguni at two. the whole thing i tot was suppose to start then and end at 5-6. So i actually told my trackers that 7pm show would be fine for me. But in the end the kavadi didnt move even at the time of 6. so i decided to leave and met up with the trackers for the movie. Step up 2 was simply awesome and so kewl. Really love it, hahaha. The gal is damn hot in the movie. Cool. After that amanda and brendan joined in for hagen daaz where my 2nd sis treated me and my frens for ice cream cos of my b dae. Was quite gd la the ice cream and of cos the company. they bought me a men's perfume. I love it. Anything else that they mite have bought me i still would have loved it. so yea enjoyed myself. The walk home with daryl and amanda was fun too. Talkin lots of nonsense and all. Hahaha!

Joel's b dae party was on saturday. Was kewl to see most of the army guys again. Guess only ying xiang didnt make it. Was happy to see all and also my buddy jia wan, chee soon and kingston as its quite rare to see them ard. Enjoyed crapping with all of them. the whole event was 99 percent in chinese and guess wat, i was the only indian there. Shows Garnie's popularity among the Chinese eh? hahaha. Yea, really didnt mind though and joel's parents actually said sorry and all for talking in chinese. Well seriously i didnt even mind and i was so honoured actually. The food was definately great haha. Went for like 2-3 rounds. hahaha.

Anyway, i'll be taking part in Netballuxion '08. The event is organised by none other than Anitha. Project director sia!!! Anyway i jus wanted to show her the support and wanted to show it thru my participation in it. She has really put in like tremendous effort and lots of time on this. So yea wanted to show her that watever she does, i'll be there to support her. Hope this netballuxion will be a grand succes for her and will pay her off for all her hardwork and courage. Hopefully she gets motivated as a project director by my team's participation in this. Jus a small thing that i can do on my part as a fren of her! And yea I have got a solid team and we re naming ourselves B+ as all our bloodgrp is B+. So yea. I aint gonna go there to play a fool. Want to go there and showcase off our excellent netball skills tt no one else has ever seen. Well jus kiddin haha. but yea i wanna go there play some serious game. Its on June 14 anyway at marina sq Atrium. So for those who like to come in and join, feel free to do so. U can ask me if u dunno how to be part of it. I'm looking forward to it. Well damn sleepy, i gonna sleep. tataz!!!!



Thursday March 20, 2008


Hey, jus felt like blogging. A short one though. Well, wanted to thank all those who actually took some time to wish me! really appreciate it a lot. But, for those who didnt, relax ok cos i really dun mind if u did not. and for those who did, jus in case u'll didnt wish me, i wouldnt have been sad or wat. Afterall, the person who i wanted to wish me on this special day, aint ard!!! So nothing can make me feel more sad then that so it aint a prob if u didnt yea!

Today, i couldnt help it but cry for nearly an hour. I actually was looking at my phone's display pic, which had her on it, and was saying things within my heart. I wish she heard watever that i said and suddenly, i recalled the times that she actually stays awake till 12.00am, even if she feels sleepy, jus to be the first one to wish me. I'll never be able to forget the moments whereby she comes to my room and wishes me, then kisses me on my cheeks saying, " u re my fav child, and i love u the most my boi!" Well, i'll never be able to recieve the kisses from her anymore! Nothing is the same again. She aint ard on a day that was suppose to be so special to me. Infact she wanted me to celebrate my birthday damn grandly and all by booking a place for me and call all my frens down. So I even went to the extent of preparing a invitation list of all the people tt i wanted to call. But, I was the one who was actually refusing to celebrate it. Now even if i want to, she'll never be there to witness it! Wish you were hear to celebrate my grand day with me! It is really painful!

Well i jus want to tell u this on my birthday. Bless me mum! Hope u re up there looking after me. I mite have turned 21 but like u always say, i m still a small boy to you! I know u will be guiding me to the correct paths in life. U mite have disappeared from this world, but u'll always remain in my heart forever. I'll always miss You Mum. And I always Love you. U re the Best Mum one could ever have. Ur son, will always remember u! May u rest in peace!



Sunday March 16, 2008


Night Of Trust at Jeanz

Yesterday was the Nite of Trust! Our clique met up at Clark quay at 1030pm. And guess wat all of us went on time. No one was late. The reason is simple. All knew that the party was a treat from Dhinsu and Prakash. So yea, all of us well prepared haha. We actually had this party at Jeanz to celebrate Dhinesh's and Prakash's Birthday but so sweet of the both of them that they added me into the celebration as all the 3 of our B daes re damn close one another. Dhinesh got the best seats at Jeanz as his cousin sis's bf is the bouncer there. Those were the VIP seats. Was damn havoc. Dhinesh opened up one Bottle, Pasu opened 3 Bottles and Dhinsu's cousin sis bf opened 1. In total we drank up like 4 bottles of Chivas and 1 Black Label. We had a mini cake cutting also and Dhinesh and Pasu invited me to cut the cake together with them. I felt damn bad as I never chip in a single cent. All was taken care of by the both of them. Haiz!!! But yea thx a lot sia. Really enjoyed the nite dancing and drinking away. And on top of that, the three of us were treated to the waterfall shot by the bouncer. Was fantastic. Really nice atmosphere and all. Will never forget that nite and its one of the best so far. Thx to all who came!

Anyway, everything turned bad ryte after that. I reached home and was heading to my doorsteps. Then saw my dad comin in the opposite direction. I quickly ran away to hide myself as i was damn high and all and he will be damn disappointed to see me that way. So yea. I tot i escaped but fuck, he caught me hiding. Then he brought me back home and made me sleep and said i should hold my drink well. Now i have still not seen him. Dunno wat will happen and wat he will say. I am damn sad. I have let him down as he trusted me so much. All the trust should be gone now. He would have never expected me to drink till this extent. Haiz. Dunno why so unlucky. But yea. Hopefully i can bullshit my way out of this. And hope he isnt too sad. Someday he had to know. So let yesterday be that day. I dunno how to go show my face to him now. Haiz. Nvm. See what happens.



Saturday March 15, 2008


Well, tue was the 30th day since the incident happened and according to the custom, we had to fast that day and pay a visit to the temple and offer our prayers to the gods to take care of her. Can't imagine I have gone thru 30days without her. The last one hr that she was ard still remains in my eyes and i'll never be able to forget it. She had life before the repiratory was put on her. Hmmmm, the bladie hospital had made her struggle for nothing. They took away her life. Well, we will get back at them soon after we finish off with the claims. Just waiting fror the ryte time now!

My class of T19 has really touched my heart for what they had done. On tue, I met up with Shawn. At first i didnt wanna go when he asked me the day before cos i usually will have last min plans. And furthermore i didnt wanna somehow tell abt whatever happened cos I'm trying my best not to talk abt it. But yea he told me the class did something for me so I had to come collect it from him. So i said ok immediately. Well, the class didnt know abt what happened till last week. I guess Man Yun found out from my blog. The msg was supposed to be passed to my class the time of the incident but yea, i did not msg ppl myself. I only msged 3 ppl initially and the word got spread ard. So somehow my class were not informed and so were some of my gd frens like yy, prashan, mark and wei an. Some of them still dunno but its ok. The fault lies on me. My apologies to these grp of ppl! Anyway, met up with Shawn on mon and yea, found out that the class made for me a diary filled with their entries. Well, i had no idea when they met up within the week that they knew abt it and came up with such an idea. Really nice of them. Feel so touched. And yea special thanks to vignesh for the hello panda that came along with the diary haha. I'll apreciate it for the rest of my life. Thank You guys!!!

This one week I havent got any pay cos its sch holidays which makes me unemployed for this entire week. And this is the time whereby all my frens are turning 21. Seriously, every week there is like at least 2 birthday parties so far. This weekend, there is 3 in fact. The frustrating issue abt this is the money. Cos for every birthday party that you go for, u gotta get a gift. And since its a 21st b dae gift, it cant be too simple and cheap. So yea money jus goes off once it reaches my hand. I am spending most of my cash, aint that much though, on all these b dae parties. Saddening. And its hard to cope for now as I m unemployed for this week. But yea gd news is that i jus got called up by West View Pri Sch and they told me they have booked me till apr 4. That sums up my income to a total of $1,100. Wow thats cool eh? Hahaha. So yea my worry abt lack of money and income is finally over. I'll be rich soon and dun have to depend on my dad's money.

Something is really bothering me as of late. The way some ppl talk to us, seems so fake and as if they re not bothered like that. Well, i dunno whats the cos of it but yea its really bad somehow. Its like u treat the person nicely and end up getting a slap from them. When i have the courtesy to talk to you nicely, u better give me the same respect. I m not a jackass who doesnt have any ego. I have a very big ego infact but i suppress it when needed. And I have an image for myself. Garnie aint someone small. In fact i am the kind who actually decides whether i talk to someone or not but aint the other way round. I have never been treated this way so when somebody actually does it, I jus feel damn pissed. Worse still, i repspect them to the core but this is not how i should feel if they had treated me properly. Fault surely lies on them. I tried to give in time and time again but its getting out of hand. Its as though I'm like a pathetic dog like that. Let me be clear of one thing. I'm exactly like a mirror. U treat me nice i will treat u the same way or even better. U wanna try being rude and be fucked up to me, u'll get the same thing back or even worse. I can be damn bastard if i want to. Comes in easy for me but yea, i give everyone a chance first. Better change before something happens. And i wun be saddened even if anything happens cos i have experienced the saddest part of my life already. Time for this ppl to realise. Learn how to give respect first, before u take that respect from others.



Saturday March 08, 2008


This week, started off with me getting called up by west view primary sch for relief teaching. Guess wat. Of all subjects, they wanted me to teach tamil. The last time i remember writing tamil, was like 4-5yrs ago! But well i couldnt say no cos if not i'll be never called back again. Thru past experince eh! So i had to say yes even though i only had like 2hrs to get ready as they called me like at 8.30am and told me to be there by 1030am. I had to cancel my gym plan somemore. The place is like at bukit panjang and i'm leaving in Yishun. Like wth. Far la, fucking far laa! But somehow, since i'm always the punctual kind wherever i go, unlike some ppl, i reached much earlier then the expected time. Garnie genius eh? Was cleanly shaven and smartly attired this time rd , besides my long thick side burns of cos haha.

Well the ppl down there are damn nice. Like Ms Nisha and Ms Thein. They helped me a lot in adapting well with the lessons and students. So i was quite fortunate. Yea. Took pri1 kids for Tamil. Omg. They re really so damn noisy sia. They simply cannot learn how to talk at the ryte time and talk softly. Was really damn irritating. I got a headache from them shouting laa. There was this particular boy, damn naughty. He pissed me off so much till i told him to stand on his chair. Then another kid from the other end of the class suddenly stood up her chair and said she also wants to stand on the chair. Omg. Then at one pt of time, this gal asked me if can go toilet. 5min after tt like 3/4 of the class went toilet already. Haiz. P1s are the most headache lot. And i was like speaking english for like 3/4 of the lesson haha. Really terrible for me to teach Tamil. After that went to p3 class for art. Well if u know me well, u should know that me and art are very far apart. I m not even one percent artistic. Haha. But yea have to go take care of art lesson. So i jus went in and got all of them to draw their fav cartoon characters. It was such a simple instruction but i was awestrucked by the qns that were posed upon me. They asked like " can use colous pencil, pencil, pen, can draw vertically, can draw three cartoons characters, can ask my fren to draw" and the worse being " Can u colour for me?". Oh no. I dunno wat to say. Hahaha. But yea. That was my first day experience at west view tt day.

Wed was gd as i managed to make two students who could never speak tamil to talk in tamil. The teachers who sat in for my lesson praised me for that and typed a gd report abt me to my agency. So yea. So far so gd. But guess wat, there was this lesson whereby i told the kids half of a story and the rest of it they got to use their imagination to write. I couldnt think of anything else to say so i jus said some story abt Robot. I was really trying to keep myself away from the baord as i wasnt too sure on the spelling of some of the words. But unfortunately, this damn boy wanted me to write the first half of the story that i said on the board. I was really struggling in figuring out the spelling for some of the words. I had to like replace words that i didnt know how to spell with other words similar to it and all. Omg. i was really in deep shit. Hahaha.

And yea my niece is like p4 in that sch and she saw me ard tt day. First thing i heard from her is that she lost her wallet. Asked her if she had money to eat. Then she said she got $1.50 from her fren. I saw her holdin like $1.20 in her hands and asked her why she hasnt eaten. Then she told me she had. Haiz even she thinks i m so stupid to believe her tt the food was only 30cents. Eventually she admitted she didnt and that she only drank. So i gave her like 5 dolarrs from my wallet, not that i m a gd uncle or wat, i didnt have any othet note besides a ten and a five. So no choice had to give her the smaller of those two. Hahaha. Yea then she ate. I m low on cash man so pls dun look down on me for such statements.

Fri nite was quite happening. wEnt to my fren raja's chalet. He celebrated it at the ferry point chalet where the chalet is like fuckin huge and somemore it was jointly clebrated by 4 others together with him. So u can jus imagine the crowd that came. I realised that when this grp orgainses, its always so happening. They re damn kewl the way they do it and their own clique of them re really the very participative and happening fellows. Got to say our clique lacks all these. the place was much happening then clubs like Jeanz and Mannan all. And of cos no fites and all and everyone ard me getting high. Hahaha. Damn gd. More like zouk kinda atmosphere where everyone enjoys.

However, i couldnt really take part in anything before 12am as i was actually fasting as my dad called me up yesterday nite to say that i had to fast for the whole of fri for the soul to rest in peace as it was full moon and not eat anything that is non-veg and therefore it means cant drink and all. And whatever they had at the chalet was all non-veg. So too bad. Had to wait till 12am. My fren Sara suffered cos of me as he felt bad eatin without me before that. Hahaha. Thx thx! But yea i started puttin all the food on my plate at like 11.59pm. Once the clock hit 12, i swallowed the food in already. Thats how hungry and impatient i was. Haha. Then after that enjoyed a few cans and all. didnt get high though as most of the time i didnt have the mood. Well i didnt feel morally ryte to dance and enjoy like that after watever tt has happened. Jus not the way my mum would like to see me in eh? So i refrained from dancing for some time till Sara forced me to. I was obliged to go dance with him even though i didnt want to as he accompanied me the whole day without eatin and all till 12am. The least i could do u know. But yea, disappeared after sometime after he found others to dance with cos i really didnt wanna dance. Was really not in the mood. And yea left quite late from the place like abt 5.30am.

Well, i have noticed quite a few things that has been happening ard me. Like my frens are getting attached. There is like this couple whereby the guy was quite fat and the gal, my fren, is his gf. Well that gal is quite pretty and i was really surprised to hear both of them were together. Got interested to know more abt their love affair and i went to ask ppl who knew. Then yea, they told me the guy was trying for damn long and tried even after he got rejected. And the gal actually accepted him after all that. Wow. How sweet? I already respected the gal as i knew she is someone with a nice character even though we dun talk much. But after her acceptance to him, i really look up to her as she has proved its the heart that matters and not the shape and features of someone. Well if only all gals are like tt eh!

Hmmmz, i dunno when my time will come. I have got to make a move sometime soon as it seems like i have not done anything yet. Well i dun really get the chances to make my moves too. There is like not much of a progress or anything and i m quite worried that the other party dun even have a clue abt this. Of cos i have got to say out some time soon. I didnt wanna rush anything as it mite be really unfair to her cos she really needs that time to be free and all for now. And furthermore, i dun think she can swallow the fact that i actually do like her even if i tell her. its too unexpected for her. Given her situation and her family now, i have to keep this secret within me for a longer time for sure. It would have been so much easier if she had known me like herself instead of me tellin her abt myself. Cos by me sayin out abt myself, it wont show much abt me and also she mite not trust me for whatever i m sayin even though i dun have to fake things as i'm not that kind. So yea, i m a bit worried but yea the news would definately leak in abt 3 to four months time. Hopefully, nothing goes wrong. Lots of time and thought and love i have put into this. Haizzz!



Thursday March 06, 2008


Well this is my favourite song now! Sang by Jordin Sparks. This is the lyrics to it!

"No Air"(feat. Chris Brown)

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
OhI'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand
But how do you expect meto live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus:]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no airGot me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real
But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survivedI don't know how, but I don't even care
So how do you expect meto live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus]
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No more
It's no air, no air

[Chorus x2]
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air



Wednesday March 05, 2008


Missing You!!!

I Love You Mum! And i'm Missing You and All the Love U showed me so much! Every single thing in my life has a trace of u! Ur memory is filled throughout the house. Everything tt i touch, everything tt i see and everything tt i think abt contains you. I miss u really really a lot. Why had this gotta happen? Haizzzzzzzzzzz!!!


March 2nd 2008


Life goes on!!!

Wednesday, i didnt intend to go out as a result of whatever tt happened the day before. But yea, van called me up and asked if i could meet her up at boon lay for supper. Well the place and the time tt we were suppose to meet was totally bad i know, but of cos jus to meet frens who re close to ur heart, anything goes ryte!!! So yea, i met van and daryl in the end at boon lay at ard 9.30pm. It was nice talking to both of them and i enjoyed the long john's combo i had as tt was the first fast food that i touched after that 16days. And yea i had moved to my place on tt wed itself. Took the train with van back home and yea it was fairly a long train ride. We talked about some stuff and yea was really so gd to chat with van! Somehow i jus forgot all the worries and pain tt i was goin thru whenever i open my mouth to chat with her. Thanks!

Thur i finally hit the gym. Lost lots of weight in that 16days. So now i am very determined to put back those weight tt i lost plus even more. But yea, its harder in the gym now then before as my body is not in the gym mode now. Will take some time to tune it i guess. Met with sara after that. We went to Nulife to sign up for some job that i shall not say wat. Hopefully we get it real soon. Chatted with him after tt for like a few hrs and left hme.

Saturday was one of the best as i spent the whole day fruitfully. Okay first of all i woke up earlier than usual and rushed down to meet my scout buddies at 10.45a.m at paya labar. I was ryte on time, as usual haha. After that the rest of the guys came n we went to some pathetic food court to eat. I totally didnt see the pt on why we actually went to paya labar as the main plan for that day was to ice skate at kallang leisure park. Well i didnt eat at that ass place and soon enough, we left to kallang leisure park. Ate there with derek while the others watched and then we proceeded on to some ice skating. It was really kewl!!!! I havent ice skate in the past two yrs. so yea was pretty weird when i got to the ice again. We played catching and all and the whole time i was really enjoyin myself. Almost banged onto some ppl, especially this gal who laughed out quite loud when i almost lost my balance and almost hit her. Lucky due to my fabulous skating skills i prevented such a thing from happening. Of cos i said sorry!!! Was really nice and all! After a few hours there, we came out of the ice skating place and the guys wanted to watch movie. Well i didnt join them for that as i agreed to watch jodhaa akbar with sara and suraen when they asked me while i was ice skating. So left to meet them at jade. Well abt jodhaa akbar, the movie was so bladie fantastic and awesome. Even though its too lenghty and all, i never felt bored and the story was simply superb as its a historic movie about this prince and princess who really showed an entire new meaning to love. Was really gd. A must watch film!

Today, went to book for btt at ssdc with se wei and suraen. Afterwhich, met sara at orchard together with suraen and we witnessed sara cut off his long hair. So sad eh!!! Hahaha. Met van daryl jj and branden at 2 at city hall for lunch after that. I brought them to muthu's curry. I was very quiet as my mind was thinking abt something else all the while. So didnt really talk much. i told you'll i havent been normal for a long time. And yea after tt left home.

Watched p.s. i love u at home. Was sweet and nice. Loved it. But guess not all girls appreciate what the guys do for them. Some never even allow guys to show them the love and yet complain that guys never show the love and all. They also think that this would never really happen in real life. Well, if that's the case, the prob lies within them and not the guys!!!

Such a boring post indeed ryte. i dunno, my life seems dull ever since She left me. Never is there a day i slept without crying. I jus cant help it. Well, as for my relief teaching, i have got into some schs already thanks to my sis-in-law Sheena. Really appreciate it. Hopefully work will help me dissolve my sorrows. Life must go on no matter what i guess!!!
Ganeshan | 12:24 AM