January 19th 2008


Unbelievable truth in Children's Lives!

Hmmm, this week my niece was admitted to the kk hospital by the child abuse ctr ppl after they saw the blue-blacks and bruises tt my poor niece suffered. Well, this was a result of her step father beating her up. For those who re close to me, i would have told u the torturing sessions that my niece had been goin thru for almost like 2 yrs. And finally we could do some sort of help for her by informing the MCYS. The MCYS have taken down everything that my niece have said during the interview seesion at her sch. Now, the step father is in deep shit cos the MCYS have filed a case against him which could earn him a minimum 6months of jail sentence.

Well, my reason for this post is simple. i jus wanna inform whoever who reads this abt how much suffering some kids go thru. This incident happened in my own family and my sis is to be really blamed for all this. How can she let a step father torture her kids and simply not do anything abt it? Seriously, which mother will even do that. I cant even stand when other kids whom i dun even know gets beaten up.

During my visit in the hospital, i came across this kid who was warded jus beside my niece. That fellow has small lungs and brains from what i heard. As i was talkin to my niece, this boy caught my attention as he was crying showing out that he was suffering from some pain. While all the other beds had visitors, tt boy didnt have any. I was quite upset that the boy had no one to attend him. Therefore i called for some nurse to go check on him. After seeing the boy, i was really so affected. Why did his parents abandon him. Its true he appears a bit abnormal. But must you throw away your child if it didnt come out quite the way u expected? What will the small kid do? It aint his fault he is like that. Since his parents could afford to give birth to him, why not raise him up? He seriously had no one. This kinda kids including my niece and nephews re really poor thing.

We have seen dramas showing ppl torturing their kids and all. Even then i didnt feel so much cos I know that those re jus dramas and they showcase this kinda things to make the audience watch their dramas. But knowing that something of these sort or even worse is happening in real life, it is really sick cos we know that its really happening. I've always thought parents re the ones who really care about their kids. Its now then i see how wrong it could be for some cases.

Well, I consider myself as lucky cos my parents re really nice ppl. Especially my father. My sis could have said 1001 things abt my dad on how bad he is and all. But only I know what kind of a person my dad is. He is the nicest dad one could really have. He need not worry what his daughters say abt him as he has a son who will bleed for him throughout his life. He has done his part really well as a true family man and as a fantastic father. When my sis cant even take care of her kids well, I dun see how she can actually say such stuff abt my dad who have raised his four kids all by himself. Whatever mistake that happened aint his fault but it was his childrens'. They took the final decision which he told them was wrong. He did his part of advising and scolding. The rest tt happened was not under his control. Then how is he to be blamed?

I hope ppl learn from all these. There re many kids who re suffering down there because of unreasonable parents like my first sis. Not many have nice parents like my dad and all. Parents like my sis have been the result of so many kids left behind in the homes. If you re the kind who got the heart to help out poor kids, u dun have to travel so far. Look ard you and u can see. Singapore itself has a large grp of this kinda children. Its quite astounding to see the figure. Have a thought for this kids. The parents might have abandon them, but we can keep this kids going by offering our help. I hope this post has been an eye opener for u and hope it would have made a difference in you.



January 15th 2008


Bad Qualities

Today was officially one of the most boring days tt i actually went thru. Jus rottin at home. Took off cos today is PONGAL(Indian Harvest Festival) which means lots and lots of good food. Anyway, i was actually reflecting on lots of stuff while i was bored.

Ppl mostly think tt they re very nice. Very few dun like ppl complementing them and stuff. And majority, dun like ppl listing out their bad qualities. They most of the time think tt they re damn perfect. Well, i am not like tt. I like ppl who dun like to hear complements abt them. Cos this ppl re the ones who re really close to perfect.

As for me, i would actually daringly list out my bad qualities. Its quite dangerous if a person dun even know wat's bad in them. This is where others start to hate them. And this kinda ppl never change and become the cause for most of the problems within friends and family. Wherelse some of them, they never admit their bad qualities. These grp of ignorant ppl, they can never be changed.

Well, i actually know what re my bad qualities. U mite have seen others boasting abt how good they re. I'm gonna make it somewat diff and list out wat's so bad abt me! Hmmm, firstly, my anger is quite uncontrollable. When i get angry, its very hard to stop me from doing certain things. I'll jus lose conscious of who is in front of me, be it my father, mum, close frens or even superiors. I actually make matters worse most of the times.

Secondly, i'm a guy who bitch a lot abt ppl. Seriously, i dunno why but its jus natural in me. I can sometimes even bitch abt ppl who re damn close to me and all. But of cos only if they do something really wrong. I dun do anything for no reason. Someone should have done something really pathetic which will make me blast everything out. One of my new yr resolution is not to bitch so much abt anyone anymore. Maybe a little bit will do haha. However there are two good things abt my bitching. I usually make sure ppl who i bitch abt knows that i am bitching abt them. This would enable them change to the better sometimes. Next is i have heard from one of my frens tt bitching actually releases all ur frustrations and this would enhance u to live longer like maybe a yr or two more. Hahaha. Dunno how true it is but lets believe it is for those who re like me.

Thirdly, i have a problem showing ppl,in person, on how much i appreciate wat they have done for me and for how they have treated me. I usually dun tell them thanks and stuff to their face. I actually msg them when they not ard me and tell them how much i appreciate things. Even though i'm a person who means wat i say for this kind of appreciation msges, some ppl mite think that these msges jus contains words. I can hardly overcome this problem despite trying so hard.

Fourthly, i am a very shy kinda person for certain stuff. Yea could be bold and daring at other occasions. But when it comes to like saying thanks, telling someone tt i admire them and opening up my thoughts and feelings, i can be very shy.

Next is that i am quite sensitive sometimes. I can tolerate quite a lot but when ppl get over the limit, i really take it to heart. And if someone does something really annoying, i'll get damn pissed. But at the same time, i m also a bit insensitive to ppl's feeling at times. Especially those close to me. I normally know when to stop. But if u re the closer ones to me, i test the limit at times. That makes ppl quite angry but yea i dun mean wat i am doing u know. But i do take the effort to explain at least.

Well, these re my bad qualities so far and my frens would have seen these in me if they know me well enuff. Knowing all these, i have definately taken some steps to reduce the effects rendered by such qualities. But even then, that doesnt mean i will not be seen with these bad habits again. The reason is very simple. Nobody is perfect in my opinion. I feel that being a person full of great qualities mite make u quite boring. A person with full of bad qualities in them can be quite a pest to ppl ard them. Therefore i rather be someone who got a balance of both these bad and gd characteristics which is what i actually am. And thats why i m so interesting! Hahaha



January 14th 2008


Illusion. A World of My Own! No More!!!

Well, last sat was quite an awesome day. It was Machi Rediyaa? (NUS organised amazing race kinda event) Its quite last minute that i actually got into this competition. But well its somewat a new experience i have to say.

The competition was divided into 3 parts. They were vivo city, sentosa and games at sentosa respectively. Well, i found the vivo city quite interesting. Cos at first i didnt know anything abt this event and i under-estimated the whole thing. But well, it wasnt as easy as i tot. And it was planned in such a way tt we had to really crack our brains to find the places. My team was quite solid for the vivo city round and proudly, we were the first team to have found all 13 clues correctly without any mistakes. Even though we found out the next round was at imbiah station at sentosa, my team carried on with all the clues as we tot it was a must. But i came to realise all the other teams before us actually skipped most of it although some made the effort. My grp was named appalam. Dun ask me why but yea we jus named it that and my team sabo me to become the leader for the grp. Thank god nothing really bad happened to the leaders as wat was said.

The second round at sentosa was rather a let down cos my team jus couldnt find a certain checkpoint when all the other teams could. The reason was tt we were using the main entrance of siloso beach resort which didnt allow us to go in while the other grps went from the back. But yea as i said, it was rather a new experience even though it was bladie tiring and all!

Well there is still like 22 days left for me to ORD. Seriously cant wait. There is nothing much to do in camp. I m seriously rottin down there. The only gd thing at camp re my frens in there(the scout platoon). I'm gonna miss all the crapping and memories with them. I've got like plenty of offs and leaves to clear till ord which means i have to be in camp like less then 10 days. Well last few sessions with my scout frens i guess. I'll try to make full use of this period.

After such a long period of time, i finally woke up from my dreams! I was like going thru some illusion and was thinking tt watever tt is happening was real. It seems quite retarded if i look back at wat i was goin thru or thinking for like a long time. Just recently, i found out the truth behind wat i have misinterpreted so far. Absurd!!! I feel so much better after coming back from my own world! Now everything seems good and i feel more enlightened of certain issues. Things re actually goin on fine when i tot it was actually not. I have somehow chosen the right path without knowing. I dunno who to say thanks to and who led me into this! All these seems like some kinda magic but hopefully the end result to wat i'm struggling for becomes fruitful and turns into reality. Cos i believe that everytime something happens in life, there is a reason behind it!!! Whatever that has happened have somewat caused me to travel the ryte path wherelse if this things didnt happen before, everything would have ended like a long time ago. I feel so lucky and great at last. This yr is definately becoming one of the luckiest yrs in my life so far. Hopefully the streak continues and gets even more better!!!



January 11th 2008


Luck, Peace,Time

Another awesome week has jus past. Sooner or later jan will end and i'll be almost free from the army. Well this week started off quite fantasticly. Firstly i went for some interview for the battalion best commander which is an interview conducted by the RSM and CSMs with the best commanders of the various company. At the end of that interview they would select the battalion best. Usually, i have some sort of luck for all my interviews. The questions tt they all threw at me was actually not that hard. I answered them with ease and talked really a lot of cock! For some questions, i answered even before the CSMs finished off with their questions. After the whole interview ended with the rest of the guys, i was informed by my platoon sgt tt i won the award. Wow. That earns me all together 3 day of offs. Kewl eh?

Anyway i really do think this award makes me feel over-rated. Firstly they gave me the award for the month of Dec. Was i even in camp for more than 3days in the month of Dec? Well weird eh? Secondly The company told me i was nominated like in October. And after my wallaby trip which ended in November 21st, i really switched off. So award for the month of December is really pretty weird. Just a bit too much for me.

I was rather high after the award as it continued my luck since new yr day. But on tue itself, i was arrowed to some shitty job which caused me to go into a forest and feed all the mosquitoes for like 24hrs. Only me and another guy. We were seriously goin mad as there was liek no reception or entertainment down there. Just mosqiutoes and trees. Then on wed nite i took off for thur and fri.

I realise that nowadays my family(as in my dad mum and second sis) has been really closer than before and we re having non stop outings like never before. Ever since i shifted this has been evident and i am really enjoying every single outing that I am having. I even get to see my nephews and niece quite often. There is certainly more peace in the family when the prob of money gets away.

Well, i have discussed with a few of my close frens abt something. I m really confused. Everyone has given me some good points to actually think abt. Somehow, i jus decided myself on how i should handle this. If something is really so worth it, Time should not be a concern. It mite take like 6months, 1yr, 2yr or even 3yrs. But wat u truely want will somehow be urs if u really be true. Again Time might cause unexpected things to happen in life. I m gonna enter a new world after being released from the army and there are chances of many new occurence in my life. Anything goes during this period and i will do whatever tt is necessary at that point of time. But at the end of this journey, it will lead me to where i truly belong and what i truly believe. This is the decision i have made. Patience is the key to Everything!!!
Ganeshan | 12:04 AM